• Hi. It’s great to see you. Welcome!

    Our forum members are people, maybe like yourself, who experience mental health difficulties or who have had them at some point in their life. Amongst our membership there is a wealth of expertise that has been developed through having to deal with mental health issues.

    We are an actively moderated forum with a team of experienced moderators. We also have a specialist safety team that works extra hard to keep the forum safe for visitors and members.

    Register now to access many more features and forums!

uncommon negative symptoms

J

jadek

New member
Joined
Oct 9, 2018
Messages
2
Hi everybody,
I’m suffering from some uncommon negative symptoms that are really troubling me and I would like to know if anybody experienced it and can advice:
For the past 8 years, I’ve been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. A year ago I had my second psychotic episode. Today I’m taking perphenazine 8 mg and the positive symptoms are pretty much gone. I think that my attention and concentration are pretty much ok.
The uncommon negative symptoms started after the first psychotic break:

1. I’m having a really hard time recalling memories (long-term memory).

2. I don’t remember advanced and basic concepts like a baby, death, terminal illness and so on. It’s like all the associations related to a concept got deleted somehow. It applies to the majority of concepts.

3. I can’t keep an emotional connection. After both psychotic episodes I forgot everything I knew about my family members, I couldn’t recall shared experiences, and all love, closeness, affinity and care I had towards them were gone. It was a stable state that lasted years. finally, I managed to change it and create a strong emotional connection that got erased after the second psychotic break. [I forced myself to develop empathy towards a family member, and after he abandoned me I managed to recall personal stuff about him. these motivational forces aren’t present today].

Anybody can advise?
 
InfiniteRectangles

InfiniteRectangles

Well-known member
Joined
Sep 23, 2018
Messages
508
Location
Georgia, USA
Hi jadek, :welcome: to the forum! I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, although it is being discussed, but I do have psychosis and have been through the same things as you. For the memory problems, I write everything down. I know, it's annoying, but I have to in order to remember stuff. I can't remember most of my childhood though, and I'm not quite sure what to do about that. I think that my memory problems are caused at least in part by my medication, although my doctor disagrees. I think it's med related because I didn't have as many problems with my memory before I went on antipsychotics. Not only do I not remember things, but sometimes I will have false memories. I will remember something completely differently than someone else. Some things that I clearly remember apparently didn't even happen at all!

I'm not sure how to help with the other stuff as I struggle with that too. I just wanted to let you know that you are definitely not alone and I understand your pain. I hope you find a way to cope with your symptoms, and sorry I couldn't help more. :hug1:
 
J

jadek

New member
Joined
Oct 9, 2018
Messages
2
lol, my mood is tierd too.

Hi jadek, :welcome: to the forum! I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, although it is being discussed, but I do have psychosis and have been through the same things as you. For the memory problems, I write everything down. I know, it's annoying, but I have to in order to remember stuff. I can't remember most of my childhood though, and I'm not quite sure what to do about that. I think that my memory problems are caused at least in part by my medication, although my doctor disagrees. I think it's med related because I didn't have as many problems with my memory before I went on antipsychotics. Not only do I not remember things, but sometimes I will have false memories. I will remember something completely differently than someone else. Some things that I clearly remember apparently didn't even happen at all!

I'm not sure how to help with the other stuff as I struggle with that too. I just wanted to let you know that you are definitely not alone and I understand your pain. I hope you find a way to cope with your symptoms, and sorry I couldn't help more. :hug1:
Thankk you for your reply. It sounds like maybe you should consider changing your drugs, but not a light move and it depends on how strong you feel about it. In the past it didn't bother me too much, I didn't feel like a whole person, but I created new memories. Weirdly enough just a while ago my ability to recall some past experiences has improved from zero to possible, about the time I returned to consume fish (5 year vegetarian..).
the fact that my life gained insights are lost hurts the most:/ i'm considering going to a psychiatrist that is researching this field of brain damage in schizophrenia.
 
Last edited:
InfiniteRectangles

InfiniteRectangles

Well-known member
Joined
Sep 23, 2018
Messages
508
Location
Georgia, USA
Thankk you for your reply. It sounds like maybe you should consider changing your drugs, but not a light move and it depends on how strong you feel about it. In the past it didn't bother me too much, I didn't feel like a whole person, but I created new memories. Weirdly enough just a while ago my ability to recall some past experiences has improved from zero to possible, about the time I returned to consume fish (5 year vegetarian..).
the fact that my life gained insights are lost hurts the most:/ i'm considering going to a psychiatrist that is researching this field of brain damage in schizophrenia.
I hope you find some answers. And yeah, I think I need a med change too. I'll discuss it with my doctor next time I see him.
 
boudreauj4

boudreauj4

Well-known member
Joined
Jan 6, 2017
Messages
814
I don't have a problem with long term memories but I have a lot of trouble with short term memory.

On another note, I noticed your username is Jadek. That's what we used to call my grandfather. I believe it was a Polish nickname for grandfather. Seeing it as your nickname here is the only place I've ever seen this name used other than my grandfather.
 
Top