uncommon negative symptoms

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jadek

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Hi everybody,
I’m suffering from some uncommon negative symptoms that are really troubling me and I would like to know if anybody experienced it and can advice:
For the past 8 years, I’ve been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. A year ago I had my second psychotic episode. Today I’m taking perphenazine 8 mg and the positive symptoms are pretty much gone. I think that my attention and concentration are pretty much ok.
The uncommon negative symptoms started after the first psychotic break:

1. I’m having a really hard time recalling memories (long-term memory).

2. I don’t remember advanced and basic concepts like a baby, death, terminal illness and so on. It’s like all the associations related to a concept got deleted somehow. It applies to the majority of concepts.

3. I can’t keep an emotional connection. After both psychotic episodes I forgot everything I knew about my family members, I couldn’t recall shared experiences, and all love, closeness, affinity and care I had towards them were gone. It was a stable state that lasted years. finally, I managed to change it and create a strong emotional connection that got erased after the second psychotic break. [I forced myself to develop empathy towards a family member, and after he abandoned me I managed to recall personal stuff about him. these motivational forces aren’t present today].

Anybody can advise?
 
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Hi jadek, :welcome: to the forum! I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, although it is being discussed, but I do have psychosis and have been through the same things as you. For the memory problems, I write everything down. I know, it's annoying, but I have to in order to remember stuff. I can't remember most of my childhood though, and I'm not quite sure what to do about that. I think that my memory problems are caused at least in part by my medication, although my doctor disagrees. I think it's med related because I didn't have as many problems with my memory before I went on antipsychotics. Not only do I not remember things, but sometimes I will have false memories. I will remember something completely differently than someone else. Some things that I clearly remember apparently didn't even happen at all!

I'm not sure how to help with the other stuff as I struggle with that too. I just wanted to let you know that you are definitely not alone and I understand your pain. I hope you find a way to cope with your symptoms, and sorry I couldn't help more. :hug1:
 
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lol, my mood is tierd too.

Hi jadek, :welcome: to the forum! I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, although it is being discussed, but I do have psychosis and have been through the same things as you. For the memory problems, I write everything down. I know, it's annoying, but I have to in order to remember stuff. I can't remember most of my childhood though, and I'm not quite sure what to do about that. I think that my memory problems are caused at least in part by my medication, although my doctor disagrees. I think it's med related because I didn't have as many problems with my memory before I went on antipsychotics. Not only do I not remember things, but sometimes I will have false memories. I will remember something completely differently than someone else. Some things that I clearly remember apparently didn't even happen at all!

I'm not sure how to help with the other stuff as I struggle with that too. I just wanted to let you know that you are definitely not alone and I understand your pain. I hope you find a way to cope with your symptoms, and sorry I couldn't help more. :hug1:
Thankk you for your reply. It sounds like maybe you should consider changing your drugs, but not a light move and it depends on how strong you feel about it. In the past it didn't bother me too much, I didn't feel like a whole person, but I created new memories. Weirdly enough just a while ago my ability to recall some past experiences has improved from zero to possible, about the time I returned to consume fish (5 year vegetarian..).
the fact that my life gained insights are lost hurts the most:/ i'm considering going to a psychiatrist that is researching this field of brain damage in schizophrenia.
 
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Thankk you for your reply. It sounds like maybe you should consider changing your drugs, but not a light move and it depends on how strong you feel about it. In the past it didn't bother me too much, I didn't feel like a whole person, but I created new memories. Weirdly enough just a while ago my ability to recall some past experiences has improved from zero to possible, about the time I returned to consume fish (5 year vegetarian..).
the fact that my life gained insights are lost hurts the most:/ i'm considering going to a psychiatrist that is researching this field of brain damage in schizophrenia.
I hope you find some answers. And yeah, I think I need a med change too. I'll discuss it with my doctor next time I see him.
 
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I don't have a problem with long term memories but I have a lot of trouble with short term memory.

On another note, I noticed your username is Jadek. That's what we used to call my grandfather. I believe it was a Polish nickname for grandfather. Seeing it as your nickname here is the only place I've ever seen this name used other than my grandfather.
 
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