I would like to describe the realm of my delusion so that maybe others can relate and find some solace that they are not alone. Most of the time I live in normal reality. But there is this strange sensation I get that is the realm of madness. My delusions tell me that this rational world is a delusion and a trap. The real reality is that I am in hell. I dont fully believe this though becaue there is too much good in the world. Let me describe it to you. It tells me that I am satan. And I am trying to cure myself. However there are other realms of existence. These other realms can be quite terrifying. I will give some examples. One is waking up in a padded room. Another is beung teleported to an incineration chamber run by evil robots. This chamber has platforms that rise and fall to protect you from the flames that will burn you up. There is a hatch you can go through if you jump onto the platforms and enter an air duct that has cooling fans. However you will be stuck there till the fans are turned off by the robots and then you will burn. The next delusion of mine is a chair that you will be strapped into and then burned as well. The third burning is one where you meet the dalai lama and then you will be carried on a chusion where you will then be thrown into a flaming red pit. These all suck very much and when I experience these delusions it almost seems like a deja vu. Then there are the visions and dreams of the world being destroyed. It seems that our world runs on money or at least this illusion of the world runs on money. That time is running out and green trees are actually currency or something of the sort. There is much more that I wont get into now but I want to use examples of carl jung to analyze these visions. He talks about the subconcious and how these visions are metaphors for our existence. I guess I am scared the world is ending. Also they represent my fears of loosing my mind. I have hope though that I will recover and the world will be ok. Maybe I need to use my active imagination to changs ghe negative thought patterns of mine and imagine things working out not only for myself but for the whole world.