- Jan 21, 2021
- couch surfin'
i feel like a burden and the world would be better off without me. i care too much and annoy those around me and i should get out of their way. i love too much and care to much about my friends i can’t stay alive. i feel so sad i try so hard to get better. it hurts more than i can bear the guilt of just little things like i care too much about a drawing when my friend wants to color over it. i’m too much pain i cause too much pain my mental problems cause too much pain and i can’t help the things i do sometimes like hurt myself. it’s like there are two of me and one keeps hurting me and the other me feels so hurt that it would do that and it’s me i just don’t have any control and am so scared. i ran out into the street and hurt myself and my mom came after me and i didn’t even know where i was and it’s just too much to bear. part of me feels like i deserve to be tortured and the other feels so sad i could think that about me