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KittyCat92

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It’s been more than a year since I last self harmed.

Today was the worst I’ve ever done.

Maybe it will come in time but right now I don’t even regret it.

The urge is so strong to carry on harming myself right now. I don’t know if I really want to harm myself or if I’m just ready to end it all. Suicidal thoughts running constantly through my mind.

I need to try and see my GP and be brave enough to show him what I’ve done because I feel in a way like it’s not a big deal but the logical side of my mind knows it’s not right to behave in this way. It’s not ‘normal’ to harm myself like this is it?
 
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Hi Kittycat92,
I'm so sorry you are struggling, if your injured badly please call 999/111.
Please do seek help.
We are here for you and do care.
Hugs
 
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If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.
 
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Hi Kittycat92,
I'm so sorry you are struggling, if your injured badly please call 999/111.
Please do seek help.
We are here for you and do care.
Hugs
I don’t feel like I need urgent help for what I’ve done but would my gp do if I showed him?
 
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If you feel suicidal, that could be urgent.
Yes you could go to your GP, hopefully you will be referred for help from mental health services.
You can see a mental health team in A/E so could maybe ask someone to take you?
Hope you feel better soon.
It's great you want to seek help.
 
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If you feel suicidal, that could be urgent.
Yes you could go to your GP, hopefully you will be referred for help from mental health services.
You can see a mental health team in A/E so could maybe ask someone to take you?
Hope you feel better soon.
It's great you want to seek help.
I’ve had suicidal thoughts every single day for months, but they seem to be becoming more intense. I’m just so tired.
 
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Hope you see your GP today.
Hugs.
 
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There is no reason that you should suffer like this. Do talk to your doc and see if they can suggest something. You are entitled to therapy too so ask about that. Please don't just hope it will all go away, you say the thoughts are getting intense now. Do get help please.
 
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KittyCat92 - Let us know what the GP says when you've had the chance to speak to them.

As well as getting you cleaned up and out of immediate danger, they might be able to refer you for talking therapy which could help.

Please keep us posted x
 
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Your GP will talk to you and check out your wounds to make sure they are not infected or too serious. Don't listen to the people that say he will do terrible things.
I had those fears and they where all lies/exagerations.
When i went he told me that SH is way more common then i might think and that he will not do anything unless i specifically ask him to do so. He also gave me the card of a Psychiatrist.
 
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Your GP will talk to you and check out your wounds to make sure they are not infected or too serious. Don't listen to the people that say he will do terrible things.
I had those fears and they where all lies/exagerations.
When i went he told me that SH is way more common then i might think and that he will not do anything unless i specifically ask him to do so. He also gave me the card of a Psychiatrist.
It’s so hard to be that vulnerable in front of someone. I know I need to do it though. I think I need to take some deep breaths and pick up the phone.
 
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It’s so hard to be that vulnerable in front of someone. I know I need to do it though. I think I need to take some deep breaths and pick up the phone.

You are not the only person with these issues. Your GP has propably seen similar things!
 

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