- Jul 29, 2018
I take clozapine and don't suffer from any positive symptoms. I have very little social contact outside of my immediate family. I actually avoid being around people. However I am forced to do things like grocery shopping and picking up my medications. It seems every time I do I am somehow socially rejected (from others' facial expressions) and I get depressed for a long time afterwards. It has gotten to the point that I don't think I will ever become able to function in society. I almost think that it would be selfless of me to donate my organs to someone who could use them better. Also I feel I am wasting resources that could be better used by someone without my problems. Has anyone ever felt themselves to be a lost cause?