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Trying to integrate into society

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meetcarrot

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I take clozapine and don't suffer from any positive symptoms. I have very little social contact outside of my immediate family. I actually avoid being around people. However I am forced to do things like grocery shopping and picking up my medications. It seems every time I do I am somehow socially rejected (from others' facial expressions) and I get depressed for a long time afterwards. It has gotten to the point that I don't think I will ever become able to function in society. I almost think that it would be selfless of me to donate my organs to someone who could use them better. Also I feel I am wasting resources that could be better used by someone without my problems. Has anyone ever felt themselves to be a lost cause?
 
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Talina

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I don’t have schizophrenia but you deserve to live and you aren’t a lost cause.

Maybe you are reading into situations too much, myself often do it because of my social anxiety and depression. Which is often just my own self-view and thoughts creating it’s own interpretation of the reality around me. Making me feel worse and rejected even though that’s not truly the truth.
 
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Zaz3

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For years I tried to fit in with society only to feel like I was.on the outside looking in. Now I have no wish to fit in anymore. It's not worth wasting energy on. Use your energy to heal yourself 🙂
 
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Hillman hunter

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We all have a right to be alive ,
im paranoid of people i see on the street , i have my hood up most the time to avoid them,
 
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squizofrenia123

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I am like you and have sz. I am all alone and just go out for shopping and picking up my mail. I teach online for work. I don't think I am a lost cause though. I am upbeat and happy at times. Are you sure your medication is working? I take Abilify and at times hear voices which makes me sad. However, I have been working though them and am doing ok.
 
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Lab rat

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I have a box in my mind 📦 when I put on a suit and tie and shave my beard, I am mr normal, mr 9-5. I integrate because I have to, I wear a disguise in my mind.

when I take my mind out of the box and let my soul roam, I am the real me. The real me won’t integrate, it doesn’t “fit” with social norms.

I can exist in my box, but can’t live there.
 
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