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bluebell24
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- Aug 7, 2009
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Having a rough day today. Work is increasingly stressful & I want so much to do well and be as good at what I do as I used to be. Outside work I'm also struggling with 'life' ... trying to sell my old home & managing money while I do so.
I keep telling myself how far I've come the past 6 months but I am finding it so tough again on a daily basis because there's a nagging fear that too much stress will trigger an up or a down and I don't want either. I'm worrying though as my sleep patterns are becoming irregular, I feel like drinking as soon as I get in from work, smoking like a chimney & not eating properly. All bad signs but I can't seem to get a handle on it.
I miss close friendships too. Just can't talk to anyone for fear of them thinking I'm crazy or finding me too needy ... that said there's no-one I feel I can open up to either so feel a bit stuck.
Sorry, needing to get stuff off my chest but probably just sounding like a self-pitying wench!
I keep telling myself how far I've come the past 6 months but I am finding it so tough again on a daily basis because there's a nagging fear that too much stress will trigger an up or a down and I don't want either. I'm worrying though as my sleep patterns are becoming irregular, I feel like drinking as soon as I get in from work, smoking like a chimney & not eating properly. All bad signs but I can't seem to get a handle on it.
I miss close friendships too. Just can't talk to anyone for fear of them thinking I'm crazy or finding me too needy ... that said there's no-one I feel I can open up to either so feel a bit stuck.
Sorry, needing to get stuff off my chest but probably just sounding like a self-pitying wench!