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trouble with subsystem prosecutor (osdd)

iodines

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hello, i am ⚱. i am part of a system, more exactly, i am a trauma holder. i am constantly being assaulted by another member whom is part of a polyfragmentation of myself. he ruins my life and calls me names amongst other things. i have been told at times that i regress mentally, or become unresponsive.

in worse times, i would convulse. the other members are unable to protect me and i feel more and more in danger. my mind reverts to that of a victim, and i have a nearly obsessive compulsion to be behaved, to not disobey. he will hurt me otherwise. my thoughts are destructive and i can't even speak most of the time. i'm a mess.

i was wondering if any other multiplicities/system members have dealt with prosecutors before and if there is a non violent way to supress them. thank you.

post scriptum: i do not trust the doctors or nurses who "take care" of us, hence my questions
 
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How many personalities are in your system and is it just the one that is persecuting you?

I just hear the one voice who doesn't have a name and I think it's crowded in my mind with just him.

Are you on any medications to help with them?
 
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@iodines Do you mean a persecutor alter instead of a prosecutor?

I don't really think it's about "suppressing" a persecutor but rather learning to communicate and understanding and helping one.Give one time,attention and do some of the things it likes
 
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How many personalities are in your system and is it just the one that is persecuting you?

I just hear the one voice who doesn't have a name and I think it's crowded in my mind with just him.

Are you on any medications to help with them?
⚱ - 25+ many are dormant. i'd say we're about 12 active alters at this moment. we have medications but they only make us more aware of us and our surroundings
 
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@iodines Do you mean a persecutor alter instead of a prosecutor?

I don't really think it's about "suppressing" a persecutor but rather learning to communicate and understanding and helping one.Give one time,attention and do some of the things it likes
⚱ - yes, persecutors - sorry, was having a hard time thinking. i know that supression will not work for him, but nor will bargaining. he is refusing to listen to anyone, and he gets a kick out of it
 
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Maybe you should try trusting the professionals you're working with to help you?

I think it's good to reach out but really,only the ones working with you know your system(s) well enough to be of help.

How long have you been diagnosed and working on this?

Hugs
 
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Maybe you should try trusting the professionals you're working with to help you?

I think it's good to reach out but really,only the ones working with you know your system(s) well enough to be of help.

How long have you been diagnosed and working on this?

Hugs
⚱ - diagnosed for about a year and a half. we've had huge amounts of difficulty to talk about ourselves with them over the course of time, but i guess that it wouldn't be a bad idea to give it another try. thank you for your suggestions
 
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Do your alters ever take control of the body when they become active or are you always the driver so to speak?

Mine has been able to take control under certain conditions but while medicated I'm the dominant mind. Now I can choose to let him guide my actions on a voluntary basis if I so wished, other people have refered to this ability as 'channeling'.
 
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Do your alters ever take control of the body when they become active or are you always the driver so to speak?

Mine has been able to take control under certain conditions but while medicated I'm the dominant mind. Now I can choose to let him guide my actions on a voluntary basis if I so wished, other people have refered to this ability as 'channeling'.
⚱ - lately i've been fronting the most, out of necessity to cope with our current situation. our host, 🐍 is normally the dominant mind. he usually fronts most of the time, but he is feeling unwell, so we have to take over for him.

thank you for the information, i'll look into the term further
 
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What's your current situation? I hope everything is ok, I know you said you're the trauma holder in your introduction.

Is your host aware of things whilst you're in control?
 
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⚱ - lately i've been fronting the most, out of necessity to cope with our current situation. our host, 🐍 is normally the dominant mind. he usually fronts most of the time, but he is feeling unwell, so we have to take over for him.

thank you for the information, i'll look into the term further
It sounds like you're pretty aware of your system and aware of yourself. Maybe you can use that to your advantage and talk to the persecutor,not bargain,but to get to know him.
 
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