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Lincoln1990

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Please avoid if easily triggered by sexual abuse. Really could use support. It's not actually detailed...
But it still could trigger. I don't know.








I've been having horrible, horrible flashbacks. I know some things happened to me but they didn't happen to ME, they happened to an alter. Which I know is still me, but not me. I get flashbacks of these. I hate Dan. I hate D. I hate R. I hate everyone who has hurt me. I wish I could die so I would get away from them. Especially D. He is still in my life as he's my cousin and lives in the same town. The one I'm really afraid of is Dan. He's my biological father. He did horrible, horrifying things to me. Everything that I go through is mainly his fault.

I hear his voice. Saying horrible things to me. I haven't seen him in 12 years. I'm adopted by my dad. I want to pack up and leave. Or...kill myself. But then it gives Dan the satisfaction of that.

Nobody knows what I went through. Some people knows parts of it. Nobody knows the actual extent of it....I want to know I'm okay.
 
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Meh, it feels good getting it out. Even if I'm not important enough to get a reply. Thank you Dita for encouraging me to post this :)
 
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Hello to you Dear Lincoln that was a very very brave post indeed.
You needed a lot of courage to say that.
You are safe here now in the present day Lincoln and we will support you as best we can. you are not a bad person. this was never ever your fault ok. you were young and scared and I know that you will have been told bad things when this happened to you. you are not to blame at all. These were bad people and the blame is all theirs.

Can I ask, do you get on well with your Dad and the people you live with now? xx
 
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Hi Lincoln, sorry you went through that and have these experiences happen to you because of it, sounds really tough to deal with. Glad it felt good getting it out. Wish could be more help, just didn't want to pass by and not reply, hope you are okay.
 
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Hello to you Dear Lincoln that was a very very brave post indeed.
You needed a lot of courage to say that.
You are safe here now in the present day Lincoln and we will support you as best we can. you are not a bad person. this was never ever your fault ok. you were young and scared and I know that you will have been told bad things when this happened to you. you are not to blame at all. These were bad people and the blame is all theirs.

Can I ask, do you get on well with your Dad and the people you live with now? xx
I get on as well as expected with my mom and dad. Not too awesome but not too bad either.
 
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Hi Lincoln, sorry you went through that and have these experiences happen to you because of it, sounds really tough to deal with. Glad it felt good getting it out. Wish could be more help, just didn't want to pass by and not reply, hope you are okay.
Thank you ME. I am okay.
 
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Well done Lincoln. You are very brave and I can't add much to what Taffy said. You are a survivor and I liked the line about not dying so as not to give them that power. That is the key. You are taking the power back from them, they are worms and you are a strong, compassionate person.
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Thank you calypso. I am taking back the power.
Well done Lincoln. You are very brave and I can't add much to what Taffy said. You are a survivor and I liked the line about not dying so as not to give them that power. That is the key. You are taking the power back from them, they are worms and you are a strong, compassionate person.
xxxx
 
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