- Jan 6, 2019
I desperately need advice. I gave myself permanent throat damage years ago when I wasn't taking my medication. I still have a hard time swallowing. I've even choked a lot of times and had to drink water and or soda to push the food down. Sometimes things would be stuck in my throat for hours. I had a barium swallow and it showed my damaged esophegus. My doctor says it got damaged because of my uncontrolled acid reflux at the time. But it was really caused by me self harming. I never even told my mental health providers what I did. I'm terrified too. I'm afraid they'll get disgusted with me. I'm terrified I'll need throat surgery that will turn out causing more damage. Please help me. Should I tell them what I did?