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(TRIGGER WARNING) Confessing Self Harm Resulting In Permanent Physical Damage

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I desperately need advice. I gave myself permanent throat damage years ago when I wasn't taking my medication. I still have a hard time swallowing. I've even choked a lot of times and had to drink water and or soda to push the food down. Sometimes things would be stuck in my throat for hours. I had a barium swallow and it showed my damaged esophegus. My doctor says it got damaged because of my uncontrolled acid reflux at the time. But it was really caused by me self harming. I never even told my mental health providers what I did. I'm terrified too. I'm afraid they'll get disgusted with me. I'm terrified I'll need throat surgery that will turn out causing more damage. Please help me. Should I tell them what I did?
 
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yes ... its scary to tell them but yes

I have caused permanent damage to myself as well
and have needed alot of help and support

if you are worried they are not responding
in a helpful way
you might consider getting an advocate
who could attend some of your meetings
with the professionals

:grouphug:
 
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Thanks hun. I'm sorry you did that you gave yourself permanent physical damage too. :hug5: I need to tell them what I did. :unsure:
 
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Yes, I would - IF it doesn't affect you getting surgery to heal it. They are professional and shouldn't be disgusted with you.
 
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I think that because they are mental health professionals that they would not react disgusted with you at all. In fact I believe that they would be compassionate and that they may have even heard of this before. :grouphug:
 
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I'm so very sorry that happened to you IWOMH, they shouldn't be disgusted with you.
Take care
 
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If they are any sort of professional worth their salt, then they shouldn’t be disgusted with you.
I’m sorry that has happened to you and that you continue to suffer as a result. X
 
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Thanks for responding with your advice everyone. :thanks: I'll tell them when I work up the courage to. :loveshower::grouphug:
 
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You know it is up to you what you tell them. The past is over and thats that. No more self harm. I can only imagine what self harm you did. So proud that it is in your past. No Fears No Worries Jules
 
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Should I tell them what I did?
I recommend telling them, no one can judge another person of their circumstances as they don't know what can befall them in life.
My esophegus plays me up with dryness and it's only through Sjogren's causing it, so what ever you've done can happen through any situation in life. :hug:
 
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I recommend telling them, no one can judge another person of their circumstances as they don't know what can befall them in life.
My esophegus plays me up with dryness and it's only through Sjogren's causing it, so what ever you've done can happen through any situation in life. :hug:
Thanks. :hug5:
 
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