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Trauma and memory loss

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Ian Sicko666

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LizBo, i guess it's just the fact i have been dealing with these problems all my life. All the "Experts" keep telling you, "you have no issues, our tests prove you dont". When in reality there have been problems and they refused to accept them, now there's actual physical proof which explains what has been happening. An it seems a few others here have had the same memory issues too. It was nice to try to help others so they didnt go through decades being called liars like i was! Lol, trouble was it brought up other questions, was it permanent, and when the "expert" i asked didn't know lol..... Then i read your post saying you was getting better. It inspired hope! If you knew all my medical and phycological "expert" experiences i have been through in my life you might understand why i place more faith in peoples experiences that suffer from a condition ,than i do on, "Experts" in the field. I have been doing a LOT of personal exploration in the past few years, that, has, changed, and hopfully continue to change ,myself.
 
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@Ian Sicko666
It's inspiring to read (or write for that matter) how healing can and does happen yeah? Sharing our failures and success is an important aspect of recovery Ian. By talking, we can have what I call 'Ah-Ha' moments. You know, those times when a light-bulb glows above your head and the info just feels right.

My recovery has been miraculous (in my eyes) and well worth passing on so others can have hope, just like you've expressed. This makes me feel valuable, so thankyou for letting me know.

Could you give me a specific example of this memory issue you've been dealing with as there might be a similarity to something I or others have dealt with.

There's always hope my friend; nestled in the 'yet to be' area of our understanding. Hugs..
 
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:love: Exactly how i feel LizBo! I know from decades of surfing the net, although many feel scared of replying, the number of lurkers far, far outweigh those that reply. Even if no one replies to something, it is helping thousands upon thousands for decades to come! Even the question origionally asked has helped people out there to scared to ask themselves, to know they are not alone. I know sometimes people who post get angry, or upset ,if no one says thank you. What you posted helped me a LOT, i didnt want you to think no one cared, because your post helped encourage me, and untold others i guarantee!
I for decades never knew thoughts came before feelings, i always thought it was the other way round. Then, one person, explained to me, and encouraged i kept a diary of feelings, and work back, to find out what thought had started the feeling in the first place? It opened my eyes to myself!!!! I never knew!!!! Now, after two years nearlly, i can see the thoughts, and challenge them, BEFORE emotions take over. Its changed my life! Thats why i go on about keeping an Emotions Diary. Its opened up the whole World to me. Decades of trouble, pain, prison, and even suicide attempts, and all it took was someone to explain something so simple, that anyone can do, and your World can change. Thats why everyone visits boards like this, their crying out for information, information that should be given out easily, but for some reason isnt. Instead, all you get is a "how do you feel,what do YOU think you should do?" Lol, if i had known that, i wouldnt ,have asked for the help would i lol! In total approximatelly 13 years of "proffesional" help didnt help at all, and got me no answers. An hour with someone with 15years experiance, but NO, fancy titles to their name, and the World opened up to me, and finally my journey to happiness begain, and my eyes were finally open!
Unfortunatlly i can not see that wonderful woman no more after my move, an its been 19 months now trying to find, or rather, get the NHS to give me someone to help me further. There has been others in that time, but, unfortunately they have all been of the "how do you think you can help yourself" variety same as before. Dont get me wrong, thats ok, but only once you have answers, and are at the stage where you need to air them out loud to confirm there not wrong answers. I am still at the stage of flying round in circles without a pilot, with no idea how to fly, or what direction is even possible? Here in the UK, there is the NHS, but, its only tailored to help the majority. If you dont fit into a specific area, or field of speciality, then there is very little help at all. If your anxious about your morgage, there are 12 week courses of treatment on the NHS. If you have childhood PTSD that might take years to treat, your out of luck it seems to be!
My memory issues. I know the PTSD plays a part, but, i also know my epilepsy, or more likely, the medication to control it, is the main culprit. I know this because when i was in prison i was put into a cell with someone who was on identical medication but at a higher dose. He had some identical memory issues only twice as bad. Though he could also remember other types of things i can't. Lol my lifes complex, personally i believe, and been informed, some memory issues IS the medication. An other areas they, "believe", is caused by thetlife long PTSD. I don't know, and like all "facts" in the medical profession, it's only fact until another fact contradicts it. So, personally, i think it might be both having an impart, making the impact larger than if i only had one problem to deal with. Add in all the violence suffered as a child to my head also, lol, it's a miracle i can remember my name (though i can never remember how to spell my middle name lol!).
 
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Oh thankyou @Ian Sicko666 yet again for expressing your pain and achievements so well, and being grateful for my contribution to the discussion. In short; we give to get, and it works like a dream if we allow it to.

I really want to write but I've taken PRN anti anxiety med's to sleep as my own c-ptsd is causing doubts and fear to rise. (Opportunity for employment as a Mental Health Peer Worker) You know, fear of the past repeating itself going over and over in my mind while trying to sleep; a response to the prospect of success I dare say.

I'll log in tomorrow if I'm up to it.

You're doing great btw! Getting the words out, developing a writing style that's engaging and doing the doing. I'd like to tag along if that's ok. :)
 
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Hi, Thanks for the answer. You got it right.
Wanted to know how this symptom of memory loss manifest in people who had trauma.

And, besides this, I was thinking if there are any cases in which memory loss has become worse, meaning that is more generalised and do not include only the traumatic event.
But forget this...
Because I think in my case is the stress affecting me, then insomnia and psychiatric medication(which many times i overdosed them to get some sleep).
For me besides the fact that I cannot recall much about my past (say 10-15 years ago). Since I started the "meltdown" (if you will) I have trouble with short term memory (1-2 weeks), so that would be generalized I guess.
 
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Ian Sicko666

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Oh thankyou @Ian Sicko666 yet again for expressing your pain and achievements so well, and being grateful for my contribution to the discussion. In short; we give to get, and it works like a dream if we allow it to.

I really want to write but I've taken PRN anti anxiety med's to sleep as my own c-ptsd is causing doubts and fear to rise. (Opportunity for employment as a Mental Health Peer Worker) You know, fear of the past repeating itself going over and over in my mind while trying to sleep; a response to the prospect of success I dare say.

I'll log in tomorrow if I'm up to it.

You're doing great btw! Getting the words out, developing a writing style that's engaging and doing the doing. I'd like to tag along if that's ok. :)
🙂 Of course, i would love you to tag along,the more imput and info from people on how to fix my head is more than welcome! Intelligent insight from a fellow sufferer on how to deal with dealing with, at times, undealable feelings ,is very much welcomed! Lol, just had the Vicar round for 4hrs talking to me, lol, and i am a not a believer!
Actually, that might be helpful to some. If mental health don't seem to exist, try talking to a vicar. Of course they will try to convert you, but, they do listen, and do keep things confidentual. Mine knocked one day and asked how i was feeling, lol so i told him! He visits me from time to time now, and it does help me deal with my Aloneisum. It sounds mad, but just talking to someone face to face really does help keep so many demons at bay.

I really do wish you good luck LizBo. I know, it's always the same, when ever anything positive happens, that nasty panicy doubt kicks in ,and it's always, "remember last time, something bad will happen". But, NO, IT WILL NOT, YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL, and more than that, you DESERVE TO BE SUCCESSFUL! Try not to listen to that negative idiot, it's always wrong, an even when it wasn't ,you survived it! Which has in turn led you to help others try to overcome by reading what you write on this board, some even dare to risk writing how they are feeling bacause you wrote!😉
 
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