my therapist keep asking me what feelings I have towards him. I always say I don't know or nothing. Anyway I have liked him since our first meeting he is very attractive gorgeous eyes and lips. I have tried to keep my feelings a secret and make sure my body langauge doesn't give my feelings away. I have tried to stop myself feeling anything for him I know it's wrong. I just feel a connection between us especially when he stares at me I just feel something.
Anyway today he asked me and it took a while but i ended up telling him I thought he was hot and attractive. He was fine about it and he said he felt something . He said it was all ok provided we didn't act on anything. It was ok to explore the feelings. I wish I hadn't said anything. I told him that I didn't want him to feel awkward and he said I don't feel awkward I feel something ?
I told him my fears about therapy ending because of the situation and he promised it wouldn't he thanked me for being honest.
I feel really stupid he did talk about transference but I don't really know much about it.
Anyway he is stuck in my head now it's so annoying. Wish I had kept my big mouth shut. He said it would be useful, im wondering how that can be. Wrestling with my feeling for him is driving me nuts. Being bipolar I will probably not feel anything for him next week as my feelings can turn off and on a bit.