- Jul 28, 2010
- Out of Context
I've held it together pretty well at work for the last year or so at work. And I was starting to feel so much better, but apparently I'm still pretty fragile. I've mostly been getting the playroom ready by myself this week, since one of my co-workers is still on holidays in Cuba. This morning when I got to work I couldn't find the forms for the kids who were on respite, and the materials that I had prepared for my activity for today had disappeared, and by the time my supervisor showed up I was in tears. I felt so humiliated. I really don't like for her to see me in such a state, because I feel like it will reflect badly on her opinion of me. I'm afraid she will think that I can't handle any stress, when I know that's not true. Yesterday was pretty slow for awhile in the morning so I didn't get snack ready until kids arrived. I got other work done instead, and then when it got busy all of a sudden and needed extra help my supervisor asked my why I hadn't prepared snack while it was quiet. But why get it ready when there weren't even any kids yet, and had no idea if or when, and how many would come? I felt like I was being unfairly reprimanded, and I hadn't been sitting around twiddling my thumbs. I've been working my ass off this week because on co-worker is till on holidays. I might just end up wasting food. On top of that, this morning was super crazy with lots of babies and toddlers. ARRRRRGH! Sorry for the rant, I really needed to get this out.