
cloudberry
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Totally fell off the edge yesterday, took 27 x 50mg of Tramadol plus quite a lot of lager. Cant believe it didnt work. Took it at lunchtime, fell asleep, woke up early evening still alive. John came over, i told him what I had done and refused an ambulance as i hoped to die in the night. he just held me in his arms.
Felt like sh*t this morning, John called NHS direct to find out what they thought, they called an ambulance. Actually the staff were very good, very kind. Had yet another psychiatric assessment which I was pleasantly suprised i thought she was good and we both liked her.
She discharged me into Johns care so long as i stay with him, not back to my flat. If it hadnt been for him she would have kept me in (against my will probably). So i am once again indebted to John (my fiancee).
I think the on-going stress of the "tenant from hell" has finally got to me. Its cost me £700 in legal work to try and recover what she owes me (thousands), and she just threatens to sue me for harrassment if i take her to court.
Her mother, who is a magistrate, told the police I had assaulted her, when in fact she had assaulted me twice. The police interviewed me last week, but fortunately believed me and are refusing to press the charge.
These people are a nightmare. I am terrified of what they will do next. She has moved out but only five doors away. If I see her on the street she glares at me. She is playing the "accuse me of what she herself is doing to me" game. Tries to provoke me. I dont know what to do anymore.
Looks like they may get me a CPN and some CBT. The lady who interviewed me will ring me everyday as she thinks I am still a high risk.
Going to try and get some sleep now. Still in shock and itching all over my skin.
Best wishes to all here, love and light
cloudberry

Felt like sh*t this morning, John called NHS direct to find out what they thought, they called an ambulance. Actually the staff were very good, very kind. Had yet another psychiatric assessment which I was pleasantly suprised i thought she was good and we both liked her.
She discharged me into Johns care so long as i stay with him, not back to my flat. If it hadnt been for him she would have kept me in (against my will probably). So i am once again indebted to John (my fiancee).
I think the on-going stress of the "tenant from hell" has finally got to me. Its cost me £700 in legal work to try and recover what she owes me (thousands), and she just threatens to sue me for harrassment if i take her to court.
Her mother, who is a magistrate, told the police I had assaulted her, when in fact she had assaulted me twice. The police interviewed me last week, but fortunately believed me and are refusing to press the charge.
These people are a nightmare. I am terrified of what they will do next. She has moved out but only five doors away. If I see her on the street she glares at me. She is playing the "accuse me of what she herself is doing to me" game. Tries to provoke me. I dont know what to do anymore.
Looks like they may get me a CPN and some CBT. The lady who interviewed me will ring me everyday as she thinks I am still a high risk.
Going to try and get some sleep now. Still in shock and itching all over my skin.
Best wishes to all here, love and light
cloudberry
