- Sep 26, 2018
I'm fed up . I feel like due to forensic diagnosis my anxiety, paranoia and depression get overlooked ((irony here is that two of my diagnosis are paranoid PD and borderline PD)) They always focus on my antisocial PD and the fact I scored 31 on my PCL-R examination , my narcissistic PD, and my sadistic personality . Nobody seems to care about my awful deep sadness and terrifying anxiety crossed with paranoid thoughts . I'm literally housebound atm because I believe if I go out my epilepsy will make me seizure and I'll fall and get a blood clot after cracking my head again . Outside seems very scary and my mood is just that of me feeling intense rage , misery , actual internal pain , self harm then it's back to rage where I think of murder and get sadistic urges ((i'm not planning on acting on them)) it's so miserable to live in this cycle of emotions.