- Aug 12, 2020
I'm in hell right now. I am depressed and had a crying spell earlier. I'm sick, sick,. sick of myself and life. I'm trapped in a world of hell, it all seems hopeless. I want my family back, I want to start over again. I WANT a meaningful life. Why should I be alone? I'm so unhappy I only have 2 sisters who are no help. They live near me but never come here, the one I have asked many times to come for a visit, she won't. I'm hurt by their behavior. I'm looking for another doctor the one I have is difficult to get an appt with. She can't do much anyway. I know what hell and suffering is today I'm really feeling both. I wish I could go to sleep and go with the Lord or wherever. I loved someone who hurt me badly, there were others too. I wish my sister's would understand my pain and be involved in my life. Life hit me in the face like a million bricks,boy, why wasn't I smart enough to not make the mistakes I made?