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To live without a Brain or be a Shark

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TigerShark

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In my daily life I have no reason to want my brain here. That is, my thoughts are so tormentous and out of control that id wish it all away. Its so bad that my heart has locked me out. I have to listen to brain all day; and hes not very nice. He has tons of friends (voices) and they are all part of a conspiracy to make me ill. Their mission as stated by them: the abrupt ending of my life.

I apologize if this is a rambling idiocy im writing, but such is the situation of my cranium, its set to autodestruct and i barely override the command each day.

I just need a tangible solution, but I cant exactly cut out the bad parts of this brain and make it all a neat salad.

I have a life ahead of me and things i want to do, but must I live it with this awful mind-full of garbage thoughts and a company of hateful voices to ignore?

Ive tried making friends with my brain, but hes full of hate and resentment and i only wish he had listened to my heart more often.

Thanks to anyone who makes the effort to find the sense of what im saying, i know its not gonna be solved over night but writing it all out has helped some.
 
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calypso

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Hiya Tigershark. That sounds really awful for you. It must make living day to day very difficult. Have you heard of Rufus May? It might be an idea to check out his work online and see if anything he says might help you. He has dealt with really serious voice hearing in the past and been able to help out quite a bit.
 
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I feel your pain. You have posted what I too am going through and I agree it's tough. To tough sometimes but with me it's peaks and troughs. Right now I am coming back out of a big trough.

Sometimes it's hard to keep the venomous thoughts and voices we have in check. Sometimes it becomes overwhelming but we have to keep going. I have given up on reasoning with my head and I am coming to the conclusion that the guys currently squatting in my mind have as much use to me as a fart in a phone box.

Although spiteful and hurtful the good and the strength in our minds will win. (Medication helps) but is not the be all and end all.

You are not alone. Anytime you need an ear to bend we are with you.

Andy
 
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