- Feb 22, 2021
Just joined this forum today,a male in my 50s, have had depression for the best part of 30 years consistently let down by poor mental health services and gps,IV lossed everything over the years and been on so many different meds, diagnosed as Major Depression Disorder (MDD). Serverity of the Condition seems to increase as I get older,one failed attempt at suicide awhile ago,and very matter of fact about trying again.As well as taking my prescription medications,I think I am addicted to pain management medication, taking more and more to help with the gut renching dark moods and thoughts.The pain meds give me that false sense of well-being but as the effect dies off,leaves me aggressive . Saddening to read about all the issues on here,and so many young people, and most I can identify with.Its very easy to see how drugs and drink numb the pain and then addiction follows. Unfortunately I have no answers and feel tired and old battling this on aday to day basis,I feel a sense of relief that soon I will be low enough and strong enough to become one more suicide case .