- Aug 12, 2020
I have been trying to think of what to say how to explain how I feel. I know everyone has problems I have heard all the answers but they don't work for me. Every day I feel so ashamed of myself of I hate the way I have ended up. I feel like I don't even deserve to be alive. I'm wasting my life away the sad part is I can't seem to change anything. How why did I come to this? I am not the person I used to be I have no friends don't even know if I want any. No education was bullied in school I dropped out big mistake. I have lost interest in trying to get my diploma. No job I did have a career in mind but didn't have the nerve to pursue it. I don't know if I can work now I'm older and not well. Have a difficult time going out anyway. I wish I had pursued my dream had children a home of my own a husband. Everyday I wake up to a lonely exinstance no hope no nothing. I fear the future, my life stinks. There is no answer nothing and no one can help me because I have to help myself and I can't.