I am new here and decided that the thing I should work on is my social life. As of now, I don't have many friends, except for a few that I hardly ever hang out with in my class. It's difficult for me to keep friends because I guess I am too awkward and boring for people. It's been like this my whole life and I have bad social anxiety and I don't have good social skills. It's getting to a point in time where I am going to have to start being independent and start living my life. Another big thing is that I don't speak due to a condition that recently came upon me and it's very hard for me to be social. I tried learning sign language but it's just too hard and I don't have the resources for it. I really wanted to start my journey to making myself better here because I tried a lot of other stuff. I hope that I don't get disappointed like last time I went on a chat for people with mental illness and I wanted to chat with people who knew what it felt like to be this way but everyone ignored me and I didn't get a single reply on my comments for months. I tried using social media but I'm not like my age group. I'm not into all of that stuff like parties, drugs, alcohol, boys, girls, video games, sports. I'm more of a peaceful type who wants to be outdoors and go on adventures and explore. I don't like fashion at all and I am interested more in like history and spiritual stuff. I want to help animals and help keep our planet well. I love the paranormal too and I just love watching scary animated stories. That's the type of person I am. I also feel like I want to be someone's superhero or something like that. I want to help out others. If anyone reads this I would appreciate if you could share your story and maybe help me out with my situation. It would mean the world to me if you do. Thanks for taking the time getting to know me.