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Thoughts of being watched - desperatly need to talk to someone

Oliviaq

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So.. I'm hearing these voices for a while.. It's not that bad.. I mean I know it can be worst
But from time to time I have these thoughts that the voices may be real, or it can be some kind of technology messing with my mind or maybe real people who I know can follow me.
I had a hard time in the last few months, still looking for a job, isolating myself... Actually no one to talk to, even my family denies my psychosis.
I have weird dreams every night and I hear all day long how they talk about it. It's like someone is watching my imagination
Is anyone else experiencing this?
 
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Sometimes I want to commit suicide, and when I'm close to tying the end of my life, I start to hear these voices in my head saying that "you are useless but do you really want to have others go through the pain of losing you"?
I hear voices every time I leave school and it'll say, "You failed your test. You'll never get your grade back up? Do you really want your parents to see you like this? What's wrong with you?" Nobody believes me when I say I hear voices in my head.
I really hope it's just technology messing with me, but yes, I really do feel like my thoughts are being watched and I can DEEPLY relate to you. It feels good to know that there's someone out there to relate to. :grouphug:
 
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Watched? yes if you hear voices in my opinion you are definitely being watched.It could get worse so do things that will make yourself feel better like going for a walk or drink a cuppa tea?
 
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or it can be some kind of technology messing with my mind
put an earplug in the ear where you hear the voices. the earplug prevents the ear canal from vibrating, which reduces some voices (specifically the ones that are generated by vibrating the ear canal).

read all of my posts and you will see I have discovered that plastic, metal, dense objects, air gaps, and curved surfaces placed near your head can block voices, along with swimming under water. my motorcycle helmet can block some voices when I wear it. you can even use your hand to block voices if you cover the right spot.
 
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So.. I'm hearing these voices for a while.. It's not that bad.. I mean I know it can be worst
But from time to time I have these thoughts that the voices may be real, or it can be some kind of technology messing with my mind or maybe real people who I know can follow me.
I had a hard time in the last few months, still looking for a job, isolating myself... Actually no one to talk to, even my family denies my psychosis.
I have weird dreams every night and I hear all day long how they talk about it. It's like someone is watching my imagination
Is anyone else experiencing this?
I do experience voices and weird dreams like lucid type. I can still function with every day life but I seriously get pissed offed at those stupid voices. They don't ever really talk about my dreams though unless I'm really thinking about them sometimes they'll say something. It's as if they have a probe hooked up to your mind. Just curious. What kind of dreams are you having
 
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The voices are your inner thoughts and in such disorders your mind can’t recognize its inner voice
 
Oliviaq

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put an earplug in the ear where you hear the voices. the earplug prevents the ear canal from vibrating, which reduces some voices (specifically the ones that are generated by vibrating the ear canal).

read all of my posts and you will see I have discovered that plastic, metal, dense objects, air gaps, and curved surfaces placed near your head can block voices, along with swimming under water. my motorcycle helmet can block some voices when I wear it. you can even use your hand to block voices if you cover the right spot.
I haven't discovered yet which ear is but thanx for your tips
The thing is, I believe the voices are coming from my mind. They are in my head talking all day long even with my earplugs, I still can hear something.
I can feel the silence just when I stay long hours focused, or maybe early in the morning and sometimes when there is noise is getting worst.
 
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I used to hear my voice in my inner ears until I was medicated then he's simply in my mind now like my own thoughts are, I can tell the difference between me and him, you know what you think and what you don't and these thoughts (his voice) are totally out of my control.

Mine talks all the time and I get very little respite from it but from all the talking he and I used to do (I've been ignoring him for the past three years due to bad behaviour on his part) I do believe I figured out what and who he is.

With careful study of him and help from a book I've read I believe he's real and a physical part of me. He's shown an ability to not only know my dreams but also influence them, he used to attack me in them and create lucid dreams and dreams within dreams. In fact this book has a whole chapter on dreams and gives examples of how they've (voices) influenced people to invent or discover great things and impart knowledge through their dreams.

Thankfully medication seems to have stopped his ability to influence my dreams but he still knows them, but I'm just happy he can't attack me in them any more.

If you're interested in reading the book for yourself it's called 'The Daemon - A guide to your extraordinary secret self' by Anthony Peake. It's a little out there in places but so am I, chapter two was a mind bender and I don't believe everything he says in it but for the most part he's spot on.

If you don't want to buy it I can convey some of the highlights for you if you like, where voices come from was a fascinating chapter.
 
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Could I ask if any of you folks ever had ear, nose, and throat problem before you started to hear voices, don't you have what's known as glue ear or middle ear problems or any surgery prior to being Schizophrenic?
 
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Watched? yes if you hear voices in my opinion you are definitely being watched.It could get worse so do things that will make yourself feel better like going for a walk or drink a cuppa tea?
Yes, You are right, it's called online, Gang Stalking.
 
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A bit over a year ago I did have a problem with my inner ear and I continue to have Eustachian tube dysfunction...now that I think about it, I wasn't hearing voices before then or if I did, not nearly how I am now. But still for me, voices are a bit rare and when I do hear them it's usually not a whole sentence, maybe a word or phrase, or just something I can't make out the words of.
But I experience this every single day...feeling like I am being watched...for as long as I can remember. I haven't even told my family about the specifics of it but of course I feel like they already know. I have no idea how to stop feeling this way...it never stops...it doesn't become less prominent the more I get to know people...in fact..I would say I feel pretty comfortable around the average stranger...I've had the same thing happen where people are talking and it sounds like my dream or is similar to my dream when I didn't even mention it...I do get pissed off sometimes when I feel especially that my privacy is violated...but I find it helps for me personally to try to adopt an "idgaf" attitude, flip off the cameras
One night while I was trying to sleep I heard "you will understand when you are programmed to be exactly that way." What?!?! Still trying to figure out what that was supposed to mean! I guess I have to wait to be programmed that way to understand 🤣
 
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