Thought Broadcasting/Telepathy/Synchronicity/Gang Stalking/etc.

[Gregor Samsa]

I'm creating this thread in order to discuss and hear opinions on what I can only reliably describe as people interacting with one's thoughts in some way. I'm desperate to understand what the hell is happening. I mean, I can't believe humanity is actually in the dark about a phenomenon that is absolutely real and basically the most interesting thing we have come across so far as a species (in my opinion, of course). I would love to read anybody's take on this, especially if you've been through something similar.

For me, it all started in the later half of last year. My worsening depression and the drugs I was taking (mostly weed and alcohol) were starting to take its toll on my psyche, and I could feel nothing but anguish and mental discomfort at every waking moment. After a bad acid trip the delusions an paranoia started. At first it just felt like people nearby were talking about me, and it went from neutral to demeaning and derogatory really quickly. All of a sudden I couldn't be outside without having people talk about me and accuse me of being someone I am not. Taking the bus or the train were like hell for a few months, especially when I noticed that people were supposedly listening to my thoughts and my perception went from delusion of reference to thought broadcasting. Then there was this one time when I got high on some good weed with some friends and was lying down on a mattress with a sleeping mask, just thinking, when all of a sudden I start listening to them in my head an we talk for some time. This is when I started really thinking about what in the world was happening to me. I became obsessed and this was all that was in my head, day and night, for months. To make matters worse, my parents sent me to a rehab clinic because I wasn't going to university and work. I spent three months there, and the first month or so was torture. Every night as I tried to sleep the other guys there and the guards all had a good time having a laugh over my thoughts, and I was locked with a bunch of other people making remarks about my thoughts and myself all day long. The meals with everyone together in the cafeteria were also very distressing. During the worst times there my mind became a depressing pit of sick, disturbing, crazy, delusional thoughts. I was trying to mentally communicate with the people, the wind and at night even with damn cricket sounds. Anyways, after the first month or so I started getting better. I don't know if it was the medication I was taking there (Risperidone and Citalopram) or the fact that I stopped doing drugs altogether (this is what I suspect), but the thought broadcasting, synchronicity, spiritual awakening, gang stalking, whatever (I had been over hundreds of theories at this point) actually stopped. After I got out a couple of weeks went by and hung out with some friends and consumed some alcohol and weed, which made it all come back, but this time I managed to deal with it.

Fast forward a few months of crazy experiences and getting used to them and I can actually say I'm learning to live with it. The depraved intrusive thoughts are getting better and I don't think I'm depressed anymore. Also, now it happens only sometimes, but when I smoke weed now it gets too real and I usually can't deal with it without thinking a bunch of bad stuff. The worst thing is that I still don't understand what is happening at all. I know it's real, as I've collected enough anecdotal evidence to convince myself that it is, but I still don't know what, how or why it's happening. I have read every single theory out there about it, and there are some convincing ones like the one that somehow people unconsciously listen to the thoughts and answer them without even knowing it's happening, but there are times when it just seems like they are plainly conscious of what you're thinking, which is painful to think of when you consider that it happens with friends and family as well.

 

[schizolanza]

Smoke weed.relax and chill.talk to God.His name is Jesus.listen. repeat as necessary...

 

[kingYee]

I'm creating this thread in order to discuss and hear opinions on what I can only reliably describe as people interacting with one's thoughts in some way. I'm desperate to understand what the hell is happening. I mean, I can't believe humanity is actually in the dark about a phenomenon that is absolutely real and basically the most interesting thing we have come across so far as a species (in my opinion, of course). I would love to read anybody's take on this, especially if you've been through something similar.

For me, it all started in the later half of last year. My worsening depression and the drugs I was taking (mostly weed and alcohol) were starting to take its toll on my psyche, and I could feel nothing but anguish and mental discomfort at every waking moment. After a bad acid trip the delusions an paranoia started. At first it just felt like people nearby were talking about me, and it went from neutral to demeaning and derogatory really quickly. All of a sudden I couldn't be outside without having people talk about me and accuse me of being someone I am not. Taking the bus or the train were like hell for a few months, especially when I noticed that people were supposedly listening to my thoughts and my perception went from delusion of reference to thought broadcasting. Then there was this one time when I got high on some good weed with some friends and was lying down on a mattress with a sleeping mask, just thinking, when all of a sudden I start listening to them in my head an we talk for some time. This is when I started really thinking about what in the world was happening to me. I became obsessed and this was all that was in my head, day and night, for months. To make matters worse, my parents sent me to a rehab clinic because I wasn't going to university and work. I spent three months there, and the first month or so was torture. Every night as I tried to sleep the other guys there and the guards all had a good time having a laugh over my thoughts, and I was locked with a bunch of other people making remarks about my thoughts and myself all day long. The meals with everyone together in the cafeteria were also very distressing. During the worst times there my mind became a depressing pit of sick, disturbing, crazy, delusional thoughts. I was trying to mentally communicate with the people, the wind and at night even with damn cricket sounds. Anyways, after the first month or so I started getting better. I don't know if it was the medication I was taking there (Risperidone and Citalopram) or the fact that I stopped doing drugs altogether (this is what I suspect), but the thought broadcasting, synchronicity, spiritual awakening, gang stalking, whatever (I had been over hundreds of theories at this point) actually stopped. After I got out a couple of weeks went by and hung out with some friends and consumed some alcohol and weed, which made it all come back, but this time I managed to deal with it.

Fast forward a few months of crazy experiences and getting used to them and I can actually say I'm learning to live with it. The depraved intrusive thoughts are getting better and I don't think I'm depressed anymore. Also, now it happens only sometimes, but when I smoke weed now it gets too real and I usually can't deal with it without thinking a bunch of bad stuff. The worst thing is that I still don't understand what is happening at all. I know it's real, as I've collected enough anecdotal evidence to convince myself that it is, but I still don't know what, how or why it's happening. I have read every single theory out there about it, and there are some convincing ones like the one that somehow people unconsciously listen to the thoughts and answer them without even knowing it's happening, but there are times when it just seems like they are plainly conscious of what you're thinking, which is painful to think of when you consider that it happens with friends and family as well.

Permafried, thank you for this. I've been waiting for another one to come on cause every other person that speaks about experiences like ours somehow disappears. Before i go on about how i believe its real please check out my posts in the 'hearing voices' section, the thread is labeled 'Daily Rant'. Also welcome to the forum, i think i read your post earlier about you being new here but have been reading tons of threads. I too believe in this really being telepathy & it also unlocked during my 'using' phase. It isn't a delusion no matter how many people say its not real, especially the family members who in turn respond to us in telepathy. I'm at the point right now of just misery, I can't stop calling everyone in my head & ofc i can't handle it so i'm spewing out insults or intrusive thoughts. I just quit a job cause each of my new coworkers responded back to me as i called their names in my head, you know how it is.. the disturbing, delusional, sick barrage of thoughts is insane ain't it? i know this all to well cause i just get so freaked out that it comes out like mental vomit. I really would like to speak more about this with you & hope that you get more accustomed to being here, its a great forum with great people. Plus, like i said, the people that believe in this telepathy usually don't stay long & i really want to know more about this.. I know you've probably seen all the forums of telepathy & thought broadcasting & there is never any solutions.. meds/meditation .. never the mechanics yknw? .. Also, you hardly get anybody from the receiving end commenting on those forums, there was one here, her name was Nikita but she only told me to keep my mind clear & nothing will get broadcasted... that isn't enough for me. I'm about to go to work (new job -_-) so I hope we can compare experiences/notes when i get back. kk ttyl

 

[Gregor Samsa]

Hey kingYee, I'd love to talk to you about this too, so feel free to send me a private message when you're back from work (I'm actually posting from mine). Good luck on your new job by the way. Currently it only happens for me when I'm more focused on it or when I'm high, but I did have days in which I was high at work and it was stressing as hell. I can't even begin to process how this must be like for someone who is in this "broadcasting state" all the time, and you hear voices too, right? I know it's kinda horrible to think this, but I actually wish I heard voices, because at least then I could have an actual conversation instead of having everybody "listening" to me and saying random shit to me in doublespeak. On another note, I don't know how, but my mental state has been improving in the past month, and I'd say it helps with the whole broadcasting feeling. Also, yesterday was a pretty interesting day. I met some friends and hung out in front of a bar after stealing a few drinks from the supermarket. We started drinking and then a joint was being passed along. I took a few puffs and it instantly got me in a strange vibe, and of course my friends start interacting with my thoughts. This time I behaved better mentally and they actually acknowledged it out loud. There was a point in which they even started blatantly talking about me and complained about my behavior in other days. It's kinda fucked up though. It was like I wasn't even there from the stuff they were saying.

Also, thought insertion. I actually think it's basically hearing a voice but weaker. It happens to me sometimes, but every time it happens I instantly get out of the appropriate headspace to continue receiving, which makes communication impossible. Another thing that happens is that I'll automatically simulate a response in the form of thought, which drives me crazy, since it makes me not know whether or not a thought I received is not mine. I wish I knew how to not think of anything until I received a proper thought.

 

[kingYee]

Just got in lol. Yeah it all is wild ain't it, i have thought broadcasting but i truly think that runs along side telepathy & schizophrenia. I believe we thought broadcast because we voice our thoughts more often then others do so us having 'telepathy' makes it a one sided conversation (us speaking in our heads which is being heard) . I was wondering, do you ever hear anybody speaking back to you? you said you don't hear voices & thought that was odd. In my case i think the voices are actually people, hence the telepathy.

do you experience conversations when sober? (in the head i mean)

Oh & thought insertion, i think this is real also. I also believe they can enter dreams which sounds way off the map but yeah lol its happened.

 

[kingYee]

It is fucked up haha. I just asked a couple of my co workers if they hear me in their head & they looked at me stupid. The whole day i was just singing in my head, or broadcasting cause i didn't want them to hear any ugliness. They were replying to me though, see in the past i was able to have a little conversation with them when i was getting high but now i'm so damaged with it that when i hear a voice i began to panic really bad.

I really want to know if it sounds loud when people happen to pick up on my sub vocalization.. does it get weaker with distance.. can you hear every word that is spoken in my head or do i have to call a name. I want to run test yknw, if i say your name like this is it any louder than before...

You should know, its obvious when people respond to your thoughts in person & through telepathy.. ofc people play games with you at first, like i was played with, pranks telling me to go outside & what not. But after awhile it would be just like a normal conversation but not on normal subjects, more like trying to help me become empty minded, or helping understand that this was real whether i liked it or not.

 

[Simplicity]

I've thought people can read my thoughts. I'll think something and someone will say it or something similar. It's quite disturbing.

 

[Gregor Samsa]

I believe we thought broadcast because we voice our thoughts more often then others do so us having 'telepathy' makes it a one sided conversation (us speaking in our heads which is being heard).

I don't think it has to do with that. Otherwise a lot more people would thought broadcast, since we can't possibly be the only ones who "think a lot" or something. Also, in my experience it depends a lot on my mental state. I actually think this thing can happen to anyone and involves things that have to do with our psyche but that we don't understand yet. I actually believe that a lot of different cultures actually came close to explaining this, examples being Spiritualism (mediumship), Hinduism (Kundalini).

I was wondering, do you ever hear anybody speaking back to you? you said you don't hear voices & thought that was odd. In my case i think the voices are actually people, hence the telepathy.

People talk back to me constantly, as I've mentioned before in the thread. Do you think every voice you hear are actual people transmitting thoughts to you as you do to them? The main problem with that belief is that it means that people pick up on your thoughts unconsciously while you do so consciously, like you're talking with their subconsciousness. A theory I have is that our subconsciousnesses communicate with one another and us thought broadcasting is actually the subconscious of people picking up on our conscious thoughts as well, but it seems far fetched.

do you experience conversations when sober? (in the head i mean)

Sometimes, but it's always more subtle and "doublespeaky".

 

[kingYee]

[/QUOTE]
I don't think it has to do with that. Otherwise a lot more people would thought broadcast, since we can't possibly be the only ones who "think a lot" or something.[/QUOTE]

Kundalani only opening in certain people, & those of us who can't handle it appear to be thought broadcasting but in actuality just speaking to people. Guess that's my assumption.


[/QUOTE]
The main problem with that belief is that it means that people pick up on your thoughts unconsciously while you do so consciously, like you're talking with their subconsciousness.[/QUOTE]

I don't think telepathy has anything to do with speaking to & from subconsciously, i mean yeah their are responses that are sort of automated which may be apart of the subconscious but having somebody respond in real time i feel it all the more conscious ..

[/QUOTE]Another thing that happens is that I'll automatically simulate a response in the form of thought, which drives me crazy, since it makes me not know whether or not a thought I received is not mine. I wish I knew how to not think of anything until I received a proper thought.[/QUOTE]

subconscious responses? ..

what do you mean by doublespeaky?

what do you guys talk about when you speak with people? Also who else do you believe they are other than your friends?

 

[Simplicity]

What is kundalini. I had an experience that mimiced mania but mixed with paranoia. My heart would beat hard and I had an overwhelming sense of peace. Til the paranoia took over

 

[kingYee]

What is kundalini. I had an experience that mimiced mania but mixed with paranoia. My heart would beat hard and I had an overwhelming sense of peace. Til the paranoia took over

Umm supposedly its a sort of third eye awakening & they say it opens at different times/different situations.

 

[Boring]

"Synchronicity" is something i've never heard before. sounds interesting.

 

[kingYee]

I guess it means that they are all inner connected, first time hearing it also.

 

[Gregor Samsa]

The term was coined by Carl Jung. He believed that the "coincidences" perceived in anyone's life might have a deeper meaning than them just being random occurrences. It's a way to explain phenomena like thought broadcasting, although it doesn't cover the underlying reason for synchronicity to exist, it just says that it does.

 

[George10111]

I'm going through something very similar. I'm going to be completely honest but I feel like a lot of people are out to get me. I feel like I've done something to deserve everyone hating me because that's how I feel when I go out in public with the way everyone looks at me. People look at me like I'm one of the most despised humans in history or something. I feel like when I go anywhere, everyone that walks by stares at me. I get paranoid about every social situation. I just feel like I stand out way more then everyone else so as a result I've been teased and singled out. It doesn't ever stop too. From the day I was old enough to start playing outside when I was a kid to this present day. People, strangers and all have been able to somehow point out my disabilities and make fun. I just feel like I'm a turnoff to everyone but I'm just learning now officially that I am happy by myself and if people are going to judge me that badly I'd be better off without them anyway.