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This video won’t stop triggering me and I don’t know what to do (HOCD) *NSFW*

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ThatGuy104

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I...I’m so lost, I’ve been doing so good the past couple of days but now I’m just in a sinkhole again, the depression and anxiety is coming back strong. What happened was I was scrolling on Twitter and one of my mutuals reshared a hentai artists work, it aroused me so I stupidly went to view their work on their account because I liked their artstyle. As I scrolled down I saw something he reshared, it was a video of ⚠NSFW⚠ a cartoon woman spreading her ass but she had balls underneath it and this video gave me a really bad anxiety attack, I got immense groinal responses and it made me so scared, I can’t be into penises, my whole life I’ve seen them, I went to an all boys school for god sakes and I’ve seen more than I needed to so I know I’m not attracted to them and to make sure I even searched for them online and felt nothing, so why does this video keeps triggering me??? This isn’t how it’s supposed to work, every time I get triggered by something my HOCD causes I look back at it calm down and feel nothing and realise I’m not attracted it’s just my HOCD but this time I’m not getting that reassurance, this video won’t stop triggering me and I’ve looked at it like 50 times now, replaying it and analysing why I keep getting this reaction, I even looked up other women with penises and I felt nothing again so why is this video different and I know it’s not a porn escalation thing because I don’t watch that much porn and also people with porn escalation usually feel like masturbating to what they don’t like but I don’t feel like doing that, I just keep getting triggered in my groin. I’m going to go a bit more NSFW and say that the way the artist drew her...you know, kind of looks like she has two sets of ass cheeks and since I’m an ass lover my brain is getting confused, idk man, sorry for the weird topic but I really need help
 
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Zoe1

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hi That Guy

some of the memes about these days are very clever.
there is a vodaphone customer
who is suing vodaphone for turning him gay !

if you can calm down a little bit , realise this is not about you
its just a clever meme that is triggering your hocd

if you can just breathe and try not to panic
you might be able to turn your thoughts to something else
 
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bangalore1

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Hope you feel better. With my OCD it is the conversation in my mind. I have' caused myself a lot of pain by sharing to much about myself to other people.
I had a terrible time in my 20's. around if i was gay or not, i was very ill.
Things have got better with that theme, i have gone onto other stuff.
Hope things get better. Take care
 
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Maretz

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There really is nothing to worry about... As an ass-man myself, I have run into this "problem" as well: sometimes a set of feminized buttocks can get your mind going too, even if it is technically a guy. You have to know that it's not the penis that arouses you, it's still the ass... sexuality works in mysterious ways, maybe the fact that it's "forbidden", makes it more exciting, or subconsciously you're into dominance (a lot of ass/anal fetish is about that, trust me!), and dominating a feminized male is even more exciting.

There could be a number of reasons why your sexual subconscious would play these games on you. Trust me, you are absolutely NOT gay!
 
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