I am really trying to change my life..for the better. I know I am capable, but this BPD kicks me down. I am unemployed, but I plan on finding work. I have health problems, but I am doing everything I can to get better. I even started going back to church. I am trying to "fix" every area of my life. But I have so much pressure on me from not only myself, but others. I not only suffer from BPD, but I also suffer from depression and anxiety. Those are my mental issues. My physical illness is endometriosis. That one's a bitch. But BPD has been with me all my life..since I was a little girl. I am still dealing with it & want to know that there is hope for me.