- Nov 5, 2008
Please don't count me as another case, i REALLY need someone's help. This is basically my last resort, i cant confinde in doctors or counsellors .. they lie to me and break my trust .. they do the things the promised me they wouldn't. But Anyway, im hearing all these voices, i have done for about 3 years now, theyre getting worse and worse. I used to be able to deal with them by cutting and hurting myself, it used to make them go away; as if to scare them. But after it getting really serious, and my harming ending me up in hospital for 'unkown reasons', someone at school found out and i got put under child protection with counselling etc. But i was happy about that, cuse the voices went, but now they're back, but they seem louder and stronger and angrier. I feel like they're actually taking over me, they're telling me to kill all these different people, how to do it .. what to use .. the time i should do it. I see it in my head and it feels and seems so real, someone i wake up form it to find knives and lighters in my hand. I cant think of a day that goes by without dreaming of someone dying. And the only way to make them stop, is to hurt myself. But i cant ... i cant go down that road again i just want them to STOP. Please someone help me i literally am begging here.