- Mar 13, 2018
Okay so i have really bad self image issues. My self image issues are so bad that i can't even talk to a therapist about them as i'm afraid they will say something i won't like. (which has happened in the past when i tried to open up about them). People tell me i'm good looking and stuff and a part of me believes that i am but another part of me absolutely hates how i look. It's really complex and hard to explain. Anyways, i always seem to feel like people are subliminally insulting my appearance. I have this thing where i feel like i look like a gypsie (a gypsie in ireland is way different then america, etc. Its not a good thing to look like. If you're american then think looking inbred..etc). I feel like i look like that and everywhere i go i seem to hear at least one person use the word gypsie or other variables of the word around me and i'm like 90% sure they are aiming at me because i hear it used around me all the time and a few weeks ago i was out with my friend and some drunk guy was walking past with his friend and said something like "i'll throw that gypsie throw that window" and turned around and looked in my direction. On that night out there was actual gypsies i think who were tryna start fights with people so maybe he was talking about them? ugh i dont know it drives me crazy and i cant tell if im right or wrong.