- Jun 7, 2009
i have had no alcohol for a year and 2 months as i ended up in jail but today very anxious and all over the place i set out to walk my dog and it was just in my head go get a bottle of vodka. ive been ill the last week my head is doing summersaults i have paranoidnschizophrenia and am scared all the time feel like i'm being watched all the time. i have to change behaviour patterns and stop "thinking of alcohol as an escape" its disasterous to me. i really scared myself todayi'm one slip away from being back to sqare one.