- Apr 7, 2012
hey well ive always been a shy person and think i may have suffered social anxiety since i was 10 or 11 and now im 21, i was officially diagnosed with social anxiety and depersonalization when i was 20 and was goin therapy i used to go out quite alot even though i felt like crap when i was out untill i was diagnosed after tryin to commit suicide and then in august 2011 i started losin all my emotions i dont feel remore happiness sadness or anythin and told my therapist and he said its some sort of defense mechanism then soon after he discharged me and said a job is the best thing for me and my loss of emotions would be temporary but i still dont feel anythin i used to care about everyone even though i knew they never cared about me but now i couldnt care less if someone i know dies and i just get vengeful thoughts all the time. everytime someones talkin to me i just feel like hittin them all i do is go work 4 days a week 9-12 and then come home and sit in my room all night. even my taste in music changed when i lost my feelings i used to listen to dance music now i listen to hard rock which isnt like i used to be. has anyone been through anything like this? any advice would be helpful, thanks.