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Think I’m depressed again

Jenbutterfly

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Hi I’m jen and have had depression on off for about 12 years now since being in secondary school. Most recently I was put on anti depressants after losing my dad in January 2014. I finally felt better in August this year and began reducing the tablets but had a lot of trouble so it took me until December to be off them fully. I’ve been off them for 4 weeks now and feel like I’m in a mess all of a sudden I feel like crying all the time for no reason and feel very alone.
I’m hoping this forum can give me support and a place to chat to people in similar situations.
 
exyz

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Hello there Jen:welcome:

Lovely to meet you but really so sorry that you are feeling so down. I'm sorry to read of the loss of you Dad too.

The forum here is a very friendly place. Don't be put off that you don't know anyone here. Chat is a good place just to join in and people are very welcoming.

Did you reduce the medication yourself or with medical supervision? I'm wondering also if you have had any talking therapy?

Losing someone you are close to is something that can make us feel really bad when we miss them at times of the year like Christmas.

Do come in and join in or just lurk about..... whatever you feel most comfortable with.

All good wishes :)
 
Jenbutterfly

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I spoke to the gp before reducing the first one wasn’t much use and said it would be a piece of cake (it wasn’t) the second one I spoke to when I was struggling as I wanted to know if I should just suffer with the withdrawals or go slower (went slower) but haven’t been back to them in a while and not since finishing them completely. I had counselling from cruise when I lost my dad but that was when I first started on the tablets again
 
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Hi Jen

The first GP sounds a bit daft to me, it is very difficult for most people to taper off their medication. The second GP seems to have had a bit more idea . Are they still there at the surgery? If you can make another appointment with them even if you have to wait a while.

If you are feeling really bad then is there a local walk in centre you could go to in the morning? Even ring 111 if you feel you need it. Listening here also . x

You know it might be worth talking to Cruise again just for the support and contact. It is really difficult on your own trying to deal with this .

Does your local health service allow you to self refer to mental health support? I'm up North England and I can do this in my county. So that is another thing to consider.
 
Jenbutterfly

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I’m not sure if they are still there as they were both locums. I can book appointments through an app but thrte hasn’t been any appointments updated for at least a month I might give them a ring but can’t do anything now until they reopen after new year.
I don’t know anything about mental health support in my area I’ve only ever gone to my GP who put me on tablets and sent me for counselling and CBT but that was all through them.
 
exyz

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Definitely make an appointment Jen. It is no good being left like this as you need a bit of support .
Have you ever spoken to MIND at all, they are a mental health charity?
You can also ring them for advice and they have some good information also if you look at their site. Here is a link in blue to click onto. Lots of info there to be looking at.
You can email them also but it takes a few days to get back to you.
Information & support | Mind, the mental health charity - help for mental health problems

There is a yellow button at the top of that MIND page for urgent help.

I know services are really stretched but try your best to keep pushing for yourself. Talk to us here also, it's a bit of company from people who understand.:hug1:
 
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:welcome: to the forum

I am wondering as you are coming up to the anniversary of losing your dad it is triggering you too. I am so sorry you have lost him. I agree with exyz please do get an urgent appointment with your GP. Also they should be able to refer you to your local mental health services if necessary
 
Jenbutterfly

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I’ve had a quick look at mind’s website before but might go back and have a proper look again. I’ve been emailing samaritans too which has been a help when I was feeling really low.
I wanted to say thank you too as just by writing on here it has helped to get it all out of my head so thank you so much :thanks:
 
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You are very welcome Jen. We haven't done much but sometimes it is a help just to have a bit of contact with others.

Always someone along if you post up. There is a chat section on here also, so even doing some word games or posting daft stuff helps distract a bit. Hope you stay around for some support and let us know how things go also!

:)
 
Jenbutterfly

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I’m not sure if your able to answer this but I was trying to work out if these feelings could be withdrawals from the tablets or a case of the depression coming back I’ve still got done tablets from when I was reducing them so not sure if it’s worth just taking them until I can get an appointment with the gp
 
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It could be withdrawal but I'm not a medic Jen and also it would be very irresponsible to suggest taking the pills again. The forum rules don't allow for anyone giving medical advice. Anti depressants take a while to work anyway so I would doubt if it would make any difference in a matter of days.

Can you google to see if there is a walk in centre near you that is open tomorrow Jen? Then you could get some doctor advice at least?
 
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I can't tell you how many times I did the dance, take antidepressants & put my life back together then all is going well and I quit the pills. Each and every damned time I would relapse. I wound up getting quite the lecture from the dr and had to accept that I had to stay on them.
Talk to your dr and see if you have normal grief or if it is being made worse by clinical depression.
 
Jenbutterfly

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I finally plucked up the courage to tell my mum how I’ve been feeling and it went ok but the outcome wasn’t what I expected. She thinks it’s hard because of the time of the year, losing my dad and the face that my brother might be about to lose his DLA and mobility car. She wants me to leave it a month and see how I feel then as to going to doctors or starting back up on medication again as she says I’ve done so well to come off them already
 
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