- Jul 17, 2019
These voices expect us to just, listen... to stand by and soak in all that they have to offer w/ no response. & god forbid we respond, because once we respond all hell breaks loose. idk. i'm just having a hard time understanding why i was cursed with this. I'm not a bad guy, & honestly at the end of the day i wish people good karma not bad, so why is this happening to me. I watch spiritual videos over and over again & they share the same theme (the present moment), so i try this, get lost in the present moment. For some reason, my mind feels there is something still wrong! I'm in my mind, thinking, why? i dont understand. I rode a motorcycle today, before, id ride one no problem, no thoughts mind free.. I COULD NOT for the life of me stop mind chatter as i was riding. why? there is nothing currently wrong at the present moment. i don't get it, i'm lost. But i'll continue on cause life moves forward with or without you...