• Share. Be Supported. Recover.

    We are a friendly, safe community supporting each other's mental health. We are open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.

the worst news for me :O(

mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
today was the day Hilda saw the spcecialist, and well he's not happy and has refered onto the special treatment unit....

hopefuly after the test this will be something of nothing but I'm starting to worry now.....

life, is a cruel mistress.
 
Ruby Tuesday

Ruby Tuesday

Well-known member
Joined
Jun 14, 2009
Messages
136
Hope you get good news Stan :)
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
Hope you get good news Stan :)
thanks just wating game now till all tests are done.......... just one thing after another, one family crsis to the next never seems to be any let up.

I know how lucky I ma an dwhat I have is so much more than millions of others but i feel shattered now, year on year of deaths, illness, crsis, its too much for anyone... let alone a weak sad bastard like me.
 
Ruby Tuesday

Ruby Tuesday

Well-known member
Joined
Jun 14, 2009
Messages
136
I bet your not weak or sad. My dad has cancer at present, just in the first stages of treatment and my mum has polyps which she is gonna have to have removed. They have practically moved into the hospital. It's hard keeping strong for them as I'm sure it is for you. But we'll manage it :)
 
L

lostinthought

Guest
sorry your having such a hard time stan.i hope things get better allround soon.xx
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
sorry your having such a hard time stan.i hope things get better allround soon.xx
thanks mate... we lost Hilda's brother to the same illness she's having tests for just over three years ago so you can imagine the worry for her (and the rest of us) right now..
 
snips31

snips31

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Jul 27, 2013
Messages
2,656
Location
surrey uk
sorry stan, wish you were having an easier time, my gran and favourite uncle in the same month,found out they had cancer, so heart breaking, and tragic, but with time it gets easier, hope hilder will be ok xxx:hug:
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
,found out they had cancer, xxx:hug:
bastard illness...... for my family there's very little we just have rotton hearts (lost uncle @ 44 aunt at 51 ) but Hilda's family is riddled with it.....
 
snips31

snips31

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Jul 27, 2013
Messages
2,656
Location
surrey uk
so sorry, drs tell me i have an enlarged heart but i am ok, luckily i don't need meds,
your relatives taken so young so sorry, hope hilda is ok, sending you so much support right now xxx:hug:
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
so sorry, drs tell me i have an enlarged heart but i am ok, luckily i don't need meds,
your relatives taken so young so sorry, hope hilda is ok, sending you so much support right now xxx:hug:
thanks....... yeah some families suffer more than their share, others get away with things and live longer lives just the luck of the draw.. In twenty years I've been around 10 deaths of close (inc sister, father and mother & niece) family members so never seem to get a break, lost two in 2010 (hilda brotehrs and a niece) now it feels like its goiing to start again........
 
D

deadflowers

Guest
Oh stan

It all sounds really shit for you mate. I knoe it feel like misery piled on misery atm but tey and stay strong friend xxx

I'll keep my fingers crossed that it's nothing serious xxxx
 
flowergirl

flowergirl

Well-known member
Joined
Dec 8, 2012
Messages
1,499
Location
north east england
Hey stan how long before you find out ? Im keeping my fingers crossed for u both x
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
Hey stan how long before you find out ? Im keeping my fingers crossed for u both x
watin on letter from clinic, then biopsy I guess and results three weeks maybe before we know if its C or not........
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
worst side of me has been coming out in the last 12 hours.... my anger and dark moodyness has hit the fore............. wasn't very pleasent to Hilda last night when we spoke on the phone, I know I should have been but I was feeling agressive towards the whole situation and it came out..

I need to get my act together and start offering support to her.

mixed head today.
 
mrlaurel

mrlaurel

Well-known member
Joined
Feb 15, 2011
Messages
6,378
Location
west mids
fucking mood always changing come down realy low in the last couple of hours, the row with DWP didn't help.... they know how to make people feel like shit....

I just need/want to be able to be "alive" in all what is going on and also retain being me.

fighting my illness and disabilty, fighting to try and keep Hilda's mood up, finding out my daughter has been fucking stupid again, shit she's 23 ffs when do they stop being dicks?

I'm skint, I'm cold (sod it just put heating on) and I'm hungry (chicken is cooking) I don't feel like I can do this afternoon...... I know this is really childish but I want to run away.

stan
 

Similar threads

Top