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The universe hates me atm

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Jeffyapples

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So...ive always had probs with and/depression but recently it's blown up due to financial probs and REALLY bad things happening. I've developed a chronic pain condition aggravated by my anxiety, my father is hospitalized with possible bladder cancer ( I'll know next wk if it's malignant), and insult to injury hyundai makes engine wiring harnesses from soy and A RODENT TOTALLED MY CAR! It's hard to blame anyone that shunns me as who the hell wants to be a around a depressed unlucky person. My med/phsyc appt can't come quick enough and I'm not sure about my therapist yet (first time). Thanks for listening.
 
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Hi, please try to take just one day at a time and get through it, we are here to support you xxx
 
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JCPraha

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Unfortunately, life is difficult, for most of us. Problems are exacerbated and more difficult to cope with when one is also battling mental health issues. I can empathize.
 
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Together we can get through anything xxxx
 
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So I have a story of hilarious irony if it isnt happening to you.
When I first came to Oregon I found myself homeless after the last sarcastic comment I made to my now ex in a heated moment...
I went to a councilor who helped me get a free phone set up psychiatric appts with me and helped me search for a job.
I went on the interview got the job and was due to start in a week.
While I was sitting in the tv room at the shelter somewhere I'm never at I usually kept busy hiking or going to the library - an officer delivered a restraining order. He explained it was nothing criminal in my background etc and I could fight it if I felt it was falsely made...
I hadnt seen this person in more than two months...but I also didnt want to see her. So I figured more power to her.
But then I was reading the order and saw one place was her work place. Now I didnt know where she worked and I think she got her job before I did so none of it was purposeful but my jaw still dropped. She was working at the same place I just got hired at.
I could have fought the order it was made with ludicrous claims so I am sure it could be overturned...but did I want to work at the same place really and go down that nightmare road? No I did not so I called and embarrassed as I was told them I was pursuing another opportunity...
This is not a small city and the chances of my councilor randomly finding the same job that my ex worked at was astronomical. I told my therapist this story and used those same words "The universe hates me. It's the only explanation."
In the end I found a much better job making more money so blessing in disguise? Maybe probably so but when you are going through it it is hard to see it that way.
My own dad has been battling bowel cancer so best of luck to yours and to you.
 
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JCPraha

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It's great you had the strength to carry on despite very difficult circumstances.
 
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Thanks! Its never easy to claw your way from the very bottom and it honestly wasnt anything noble for me. I just decided I didnt like homeless shelters depending on the good will of others to eat or a limited food stamp budget and I had a resume that could change my circumstances so I kept at it until it did.
Now I sleep when I want on the weekends lol and other things.
 
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You have inner strength. It is very difficult to recover when you are down so low. Particularly if you face any mental health issues. I'm glad you are doing better now. So good for you!
 
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