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- Dec 20, 2018
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It is quiet. Around here, around me. In me. Birds stopped singing, trees stopped moving, waters stopped flowing. Everything came to a halt. It is silent. Who am I? What is my purpose here? Will I ever have a purpose? Will I be fighting alone in my life? Alone. Lonely. Will I be able to cope with all the pain on my own? Am I meant to be alone? Lonely? I have friends. I have family. But still,
it is just me. Nobody understands me. Nobody takes their time to. Nobody tries. It begins that they mean nothing to me. My family means nothing to me already. My friends slowly start to disappear.
Am I difficult to love? Am I a bad person? Things I might never be able to answer. What is it like to be loved? I never had that feeling to be loved. To be important. To be irreplaceable. Will I ever know how it feels like?
I am afraid. Afraid to be hurt and also to fall in love. I am sure it can be the most wonderful thing. To love. But love can also destroy. Disappoint.
I am sitting here. Alone. Watching people, couples. Couples with kids. They are happy. Sharing experiences, memories.
Everything rushes by, times flies in a matrix. People come and go. Happy, caring, loving. It’s just me. Me. Standstill.
it is just me. Nobody understands me. Nobody takes their time to. Nobody tries. It begins that they mean nothing to me. My family means nothing to me already. My friends slowly start to disappear.
Am I difficult to love? Am I a bad person? Things I might never be able to answer. What is it like to be loved? I never had that feeling to be loved. To be important. To be irreplaceable. Will I ever know how it feels like?
I am afraid. Afraid to be hurt and also to fall in love. I am sure it can be the most wonderful thing. To love. But love can also destroy. Disappoint.
I am sitting here. Alone. Watching people, couples. Couples with kids. They are happy. Sharing experiences, memories.
Everything rushes by, times flies in a matrix. People come and go. Happy, caring, loving. It’s just me. Me. Standstill.