- Dec 9, 2013
These are the little things that get me through the day and i need them. I am off work today (i only work two days at the moment, on graduated return) and the day didn't start well because i'd had such little sleep. I decided to drive into town and treat myself to a capuccino and cake but truthfully felt like shit. I was verging on rude to the cashier because i feel so exhausted and without any Christmas spirit in me whatsoever. I hate being like that with people but when you feel flat and glum you cannot fake jolly easily can you. I'm finding it hard only working two days but i know i'm not ready for more. I don't get out of bed until midday trying for that extra bit of sleep or just unable to get up, but my body aches from either being in bed too long or from simple inactivity. I need to join the gym again but i don't have the motivation yet. It is too cold to get this body ready for a swimming costume anyway. I'm not sure what to do with myself much of the time and an idle mind plunges frequently into the past and that isn't a good thing, or is it, i don't know.