- Jan 31, 2020
I escape through alcohol because I’m so sick of being accused me mentally ill and my family always says I’m sick but I achieve in life my family won’t acknowledge that it’s always them saying I’m mental I’ve had it I escape this through alcoholVery good points WhatSarahSaid. I dont want to quit smoking...but drinking is killing me and I have quit but I always return to it. And the anti depressants help but I combine everything and truly am dying.
I am so sad that I have days I dont even remember. I let myself down...I let everyone down. I'm a broken man
I know I have to escape through alcohol and stretch my pennies to make it work I too am flat poori remember the first time i took a hit of bud and instantly felt like i could breathe and enjoy my life for the very first time from birth, now its 8 shots of cheap vodka everynight debating on if i should even eat ramen or not cause i dont have 20 cents for it...
telling you I escape my pain too through alcohol because when I quit drinking I can’t handle my feelings it’s hell. Alcohol numbs me out I have to hide all of this from my family that keeps threatening me about alcohol and putting me in patientits a living hell. There comes a day when you realize you're addicted. so far gone . its a cycle of pure insanity. Combined with BPD its absolute shit show. Im a quiet borderline but the alcohol can send me into full blown rage. Im convince .I want to quit but that emptiness returns and the loneliness of it all makes me give in. It like i want the weed or alcohol more that anything. Ive lost everything that truly matters. no self respect left when you throw your values and morals out to poison yourself over and over and over...to a point you don't even know what they are. I joined to get support. I want to quit. Im might go to rehab. so sick of all of it
Okay I’ve been off alcohol for 3 days now and My Doctor raised my Geodon so my anger and suicidal tendencies went away do I love beer yes! Completely! But I can’t live with it making feel suicidal so I’m fighting going back to it because I’m not suicidal anymore dudeCount me in, I need the buzz of alcohol. Only those that have it understand.
I’m telling you man I finally quit 4 days ago talked to my doctor on the phone since it’s phone these days and he raised my antipsychotic and the cravings lifted and I’m telling you I have always lived to drink! Talk to your doctor and get your antipsychotic raised it changes everythingI’m too a functioning alcoholic but I have to constantly hide it from my threatening family
I got my antipsychotic raised with my doctor and now I don’t live to drink try it it’s a freakin miracleIm
telling you I escape my pain too through alcohol because when I quit drinking I can’t handle my feelings it’s hell. Alcohol numbs me out I have to hide all of this from my family that keeps threatening me about alcohol and putting me in patient
My Geodon is my antipsychotic try it makes the cravings lift dudeOkay I’ve been off alcohol for 3 days now and My Doctor raised my Geodon so my anger and suicidal tendencies went away do I love beer yes! Completely! But I can’t live with it making feel suicidal so I’m fighting going back to it because I’m not suicidal anymore dude
I love youI’m not an alcoholic, but I sure like to hear the hopeless get positive. It is a miracle! Be thankful to Jesus and follow him through the rest of your recovery. You need his strength and love and forgiveness will get you through. God loves you. See you can do it with the right help, it’s hopeful now. Go with God.
I’ve been forcing myself to stay sober for the first time in 30 years like a month now because I was so tired of feeling like shit. I talked with my doctor a few times getting my medicine straightened out because when you quit a substance that rewards your brain the pleasure part you hurt until your medicine works now I feel better and can fuck off drinking boozeI usually take crank or opioid every week, sometime toochie if can get Sunday only for special treat
But always feel total shite Monday
Yesterday not take and today do not feel shite
Stop our bang is so very hard
I think if you can do only one time in a week is good but very hard to do