That feeling with the bottle is empty

Urban Hermit

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Having 'one of those nights' and just looked over and the bottle is empty and it's a Sunday so everywhere will be shut...... F**k

Anyone else with me on the I only want one more train ..........
 
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Hi Urban Hermit,
Hey sorry you're feeling bad, I know I've been there with alcohol I loved the stuff (and secretly I still do at times)
I used to drink to 'feel' though then the feelings would get too much for me and yeh not a good picture.
I want a drink at the moment, I've had a few bad things happen this time last year, so its kind of the anniversary of all that.
Probably best not to have anymore if you can help.
Have you any distractions
 
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Hi thanks for the replies, I think I drink to try to avoid feeling it's either that or SH ......

I know neither are good for me but when you're in that whole it's hard to find away out .....

Going to watch some mindless TV and hope the feelings go away so I can sleep ....

Thanks for your support X
 
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Hope things settle soon for you,
Guess for me feeling like I need to let it out,
I feel where your at and yeh the SH word,
Thinking of you x
 
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Hope things settle soon for you,
Guess for me feeling like I need to let it out,
I feel where your at and yeh the SH word,
Thinking of you x
Thanks Megirl X thinking of you too X
Let me know if I can help you anytime X
 
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Having 'one of those nights' and just looked over and the bottle is empty and it's a Sunday so everywhere will be shut...... F**k

Anyone else with me on the I only want one more train ..........
I wish I lived close because I would give you this 1/2 bottle that's left in my bedroom.I would gladly give it to you so that I don't drink it.Alcohol scares me,it calls my name,taunts me with that promised warmth that I know will surge through my body and make everything ok.
 
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Having 'one of those nights' and just looked over and the bottle is empty and it's a Sunday so everywhere will be shut...... F**k

Anyone else with me on the I only want one more train ..........
i feel ya...i cannot drink as i am on parole, but fuck i want to so fucking bad!!! this is killing me!!
 
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Alcohol means absolutely nothing to me. My problem is that the Valium and Klonopin bottles are never empty. I always have access to more. So I never resolve any issues and I'm in agony everyday because of it. Then nighttime comes and I'm scared to death of the day never ending. So I'm always going for both. And Gabapentin. Some nights. And up until last night, Ambien. Now it's gone. I miss my cat.
 
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As silly as it sounds, at 0:40 -> 1:20; this was how I spent most of hers [my cats] and my life together. Outside my home on or near a bench. Or walking together. I hope someday I can watch this scene again without feeling sad and crying. When she was alive, this scene inspired joy and sentimentality in me because I related to it so strongly.
 
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GABA supplement actually works. There is some slight nausea. But it works. It stopped me from taking benzodiazepines.
 
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I'm taking Magnesium, too. But the Evil is here. And like Soprano's gun charge from the first episode of part 2 of season 6, it's not going away. I guess I'm living with Evil now.
 
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Alcohol means absolutely nothing to me. My problem is that the Valium and Klonopin bottles are never empty. I always have access to more. So I never resolve any issues and I'm in agony everyday because of it. Then nighttime comes and I'm scared to death of the day never ending. So I'm always going for both. And Gabapentin. Some nights. And up until last night, Ambien. Now it's gone. I miss my cat.

Im sorry
 
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I didn't really mean to sound confrontational. But you replied to my post in a pedestrian, dismissive, and essentially frivolous way. So it's all that came to my mind.