
Tortoise
Member
Hi out there,
This is my first posting on this site and I hope you will bear with me because I am feeling so low right now and just want to express this in the clearest possible way.
I get the feeling I'm heading for a painful fall and there is nobody who can help me but myself. I have to ask if I really want to get well again and what sacrifices I may have to make.
I just feel so useless. I'm isolating myself in my flat and am having some suicidal thoughts and a great deal of paranoia.
I do go to a Social Services Day Centre, where I am known, but in recent weeks I've begun to find that this place and those who work there and use it, are not providing me with the kind of environment where I can talk about my feelings safely and without fear of unwanted consequences.
I'm reluctant to go out due to ongoing Agoraphobia.This is aggravating my condition, creating critical thoughts and adding to my feelings of being trapped.
Can anyone relate to this? How do you cope when things get this bad?
This is all I can manage right now. I feel exhausted. Thanks for reading if you got this far.
Phil
This is my first posting on this site and I hope you will bear with me because I am feeling so low right now and just want to express this in the clearest possible way.
I get the feeling I'm heading for a painful fall and there is nobody who can help me but myself. I have to ask if I really want to get well again and what sacrifices I may have to make.
I just feel so useless. I'm isolating myself in my flat and am having some suicidal thoughts and a great deal of paranoia.
I do go to a Social Services Day Centre, where I am known, but in recent weeks I've begun to find that this place and those who work there and use it, are not providing me with the kind of environment where I can talk about my feelings safely and without fear of unwanted consequences.
I'm reluctant to go out due to ongoing Agoraphobia.This is aggravating my condition, creating critical thoughts and adding to my feelings of being trapped.
Can anyone relate to this? How do you cope when things get this bad?
This is all I can manage right now. I feel exhausted. Thanks for reading if you got this far.
Phil