I just realized I don't belong here. I'm DID and I'm trying to relate to people who have illnesses that are nothing like DID. its not working. There don't seem to be others like me around for me to relate too. And besides, even when someone does come around I don't trust them. I don't talk to them. I'm scared of them. Cally told me recently that you mods have been trying to understand. Thanks for trying. Dissociation isn't an illness. Its just a reaction to trauma. Maybe its an illness when its this severe. I see how bipolar is a legitimate illness. Its not normal. But professionals say DID is a normal reaction. If its normal...its not an illness. So I guess I don't understand why my life is so messed up. Is ptsd the illness? I don't know. All I know is my brain doesn't know its 2012. Its stuck in my childhood years. In every way. I'm sorry to everyone.