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mellonheadgirl

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I just realized I don't belong here. I'm DID and I'm trying to relate to people who have illnesses that are nothing like DID. its not working. There don't seem to be others like me around for me to relate too. And besides, even when someone does come around I don't trust them. I don't talk to them. I'm scared of them. Cally told me recently that you mods have been trying to understand. Thanks for trying. Dissociation isn't an illness. Its just a reaction to trauma. Maybe its an illness when its this severe. I see how bipolar is a legitimate illness. Its not normal. But professionals say DID is a normal reaction. If its normal...its not an illness. So I guess I don't understand why my life is so messed up. Is ptsd the illness? I don't know. All I know is my brain doesn't know its 2012. Its stuck in my childhood years. In every way. I'm sorry to everyone.
 
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Rose19602

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You have nothing to apologise for Mellon.....we're all confused or messed up in one way or another, and childhood issues have an impact on many of us, whether we've got stuck there or not.
People may not have the same disorder as you, but most people try to understand and empathise.
Maybe that doesn't always come across in the right way, but it doesn't mean that you don't belong.

Trust takes time...but forgiveness is always on offer.
take care
x
 
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Definitely nothing to apologise for, just wish we could help you more, we will always do our best for you because you deserve all the help and support we can give.

Tina xx :hug1:
 
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mellonheadgirl

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Thanks Tina. I don't remember specifics but I think you've been really patient with me.

I just don't understand. Am I ill? I feel very ill. I dont live my own life. But I can't think I have things in common with you guys. Because I don't. I don't even know what its like to be a whole person who does normal things and feels normal things. I will ask Google if I am ill...I guess.
 
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mellonheadgirl

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http://www.nami.org/Content/ContentGroups/Helpline1/Dissociative_Identity_Disorder_(formerly_Multiple_Personality_Disorder).htm

This is what national alliance of mental illness says about it. Is a disorder the same as an illness?
 
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fallen

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Hi, MHG,
I hope you are okay today. You have nothing to apologise for from my viewpoint either. I'm sorry to admit that I couldn't help you very much yesterday because of my own situation at the time, so if anyone is to apologise, it's me.
As for whether DID is an illness or not: it is listed alongside various other mental illnesses if you search online (if you search under definitions of 'disorder' it can be described as 'an ailment that affects the function of the mind or body'). As you have said yourself, you don't feel well...
You have as much right as anybody to be here and use this site, whatever the discription of your condition is, imo.

:hug1:
 
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mellonheadgirl

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Hey fallen. I don't know about last night. Im not around often or for very long. I'm sure you were fine. Everyone has their own problems and can't always tend to others.

Its hard for me to see it as an illness (even though I feel ill) when professionals say its normal. I think they say that to make us feel less crazy.
 
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fallen

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Thanx for understanding, MHG. x

I don't understand why professionals would say it is normal either, perhaps they mean that given your background, it is normal to be reacting the way you are with the DID symptoms? Rather strange thing to say to you either way.
 
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hey Melly, stick around, you have as much right to be on here as anyone else. Those of us who know you live with DID try to step in and help others understand that you are trying to be you, but there are quite a few of you. I think the word 'disorder' covers a lot of people here, but its up to you if you want to stay or not, - I would miss you though. xx
 
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