Terrified if I'm attracted to my mother, or if it's just OCD

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I'm taking this medication (MAOI) called Nardil which affects your libido. It's been hard to masturbate. I've had urges, but I can't release. Sometimes I'm at my computer for 5 hours. This morning, I had another session which lasted 3 hours. At the end, I started thinking of my mother when she was younger, and I ended up ejaculating somehow.

I have had OCD like symptoms and intrusive thoughts since I was a teenager. These OCD like traits have also led me to develop intrusive thoughts about various people I'd be uncomfortable having such thoughts about. I'm challenging myself, trying to determine if I'm really not sexually attracted to certain people I'm close to. It's like my mind is telling me "Haha, let's see if you're gay or attracted to your family!", even though I'm not a homophobe. Family members and male friends mainly. But because I'm not gay or a pedophile, these thoughts have mostly centered on my mother. I've had many moments where I've had slight sexual stimulation around my mother, or when she pops into my mind. Also, she pops into my mind frequently when I'm ejaculating to a picture of someone online.

I'm terrified of being sexually attracted to her, I would feel violated. Is this incest, or OCD?
 
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If you develop a healthy sexual relationship and cease doing the internet, you will find most of this will clear up.
Do you think this is genuine attraction or incest, or OCD or OCD like traits?
 
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I think Freud said boys are attracted to their mothers by nature but they get over this by getting a girlfriend. If you don't focus on this, it won't develop into something like OCD. You have to do a behavior that will be the opposite of this.
 
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Yes it’s ocd. Ignoring these thoughts and not entertaining them is the best advice from an expert I EVER got.
 
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The fact that you find it strange/uncomfortable means it’s intrusive thoughts and OCD. Your getting a sexual feeling because you are thinking about sex, your mother popped into your head because of intrusive thoughts and like you said, ‘haha let’s see if your attracted to your family’. also if they are groinal response then it’s nothing to do with sexual attraction. What’s Going On Down There? OCD and Arousal - Intrusive Thoughts
DONT WORRY everyone goes through this, you’ve just latched onto it because of your ocd like nature.
 
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On xhamster there is a lot of incest porn. Taboos like incest can be erotic. It's a bit fucked up but there you go.
 
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Have you ever had any sexual urges surrounding your mother? An important part of sexuality is the urge to act on it. It’s not always easy to tell the difference between a thought and an urge, especially if you live in the murky grey area that manifests itself in ocd symptoms. Based on your post you have certainly felt the urge to masturbate. Can you isolate what that urge feels like? And if so, have you ever felt that way directed towards your mother sexually or does your mom just happen to sometimes pop up mid go?

I highly suspect that your experience is based in OCD symptoms. Sexual obsessions are very common in OCD. OCD likes to take your morals and identity and use them against you. And even if it’s NOT OCD, you still can’t control your thoughts. The fact that you’re this afraid of the thought proves you have no intention to act on it.

The intention to act is a very important part in any action. Take some deep breaths and try not to fixate on the thoughts and fears. Believe me I know it’s hard but it will only feed them.
 

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