- Nov 18, 2018
Things have gotten incredibly bad for me. Friday night I hurt myself for the first time.. Then Saturday morning my boyfriend broke up with me suddenly, he kind of lied, broke a lot of promises, etc. And Saturday as well I believe my best friend blocked me and I don’t know why cause we haven’t talked in a month but I have no way to contact him. I’m feeling incredibly suicidal it’s all I can think about. I feel sick literally constantly so I can’t eat. I haven’t had a full meal since Thursday or Friday. I can hardly sleep, my head hurts all the time, my muscles are aching, I’m tensed up and can’t relax. I emailed my school counselor and asked if we could talk before the winter break. If we’re able to I’m kind of scared because I need to tell someone else how suicidal and depressed I am all the time but he’ll have to tell my parents and I’m terrified because we don’t have a good relationship and they’re the cause of some of it but they don’t know. I just need real help now but I’m terrified of my parents learning.
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