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liamgalz

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I have been diagnosed with depression for about a year now and have been in denial with the condition for much longer.

I work in education so am always feeling stressed and anxious about meeting specific deadlines and whether or not I am generally doing a good job.

What is strange is that I had such a great life yet still managed to feel depressed. I had a beautiful, loving and supportive wife, a handsome 10 month old son, a lovely little dog called Eric and a really sturdy career yet I sometimes used to wake up and wish that I hadn't.

Recently, I have been seeking attention and any form of feeling apart from stress and depression. In doing so, I made a mistake that has resulted in my wife leaving me and the high possibility that I have thrown my career out of the window. This has felt like a final blow in terms of carrying on and am really in need of support of any kind.

I have been taking medication which doesn't seem to be too effective to be honest and have recently attended a 'local meet' which was nice but again, I am unsure if I am just being pessimistic but I can't see it deflecting the feeling that I currently have towards myself and life in general.
 
Poir0t

Poir0t

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Hi liamgalz.
Welcome to the forum
 
Poopy Doll

Poopy Doll

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Hi liamgatz. Please continue with the meetings. Meetings can be very helpful. They don't seem helpful at first. I'm sorry everything is falling apart in your life. But like the Phoenix, you will rise from the ashes to form a new life, and a new you. Or you can give up and become homeless. It's your choice and for your son's sake I hope you will choose well. For YOUR sake I hope you choose well !!

I lost EVERYTHING in my life; my husband, my children ages 13, 14 & 15, my house on five acres, all my clothes, all my pots and pans, my cat. I had no place to live so they put me in a group home from hell. I could not envision how to manage. My connection to yoga was severed.

But now I live in a happy home with my dear boyfriend and we've been together for 23 years. My relationship with my three grown sons has been repaired. I have all new possessions that I'm not that attached to but I'm grateful for. I have two cute dogs. I could never have envisioned this new life that has been created after I made mistakes and blew apart my other life.

What I'm saying is you'll be okay. :)
 
Anita1080

Anita1080

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So sorry to hear you feel this way. I feel the same I cannot carry on with life.
 
NeedHaldol

NeedHaldol

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From the movie Fight Club -

"It's only after we lose everything that we are free to do anything."

I lost everything when I went AWOL from the Army. I came back with nothing left for me there. I finally got out, but spent a year just drifting around.

I eventually ended back at my parents. I was taken to the hospital for ten days while they stabilized and diagnosed me.

I felt lost and alone and scared and taken advantage of, but I realized that I had to do something to save myself. You need to find that one thing that you can hold onto in the midst of the storm.
 
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