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tiltawhirl

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Stayed up with David the last couple of nights and it blows me up. I should know this. He will sleep in until he has enough sleep. I will not. He stays up much too late for me..but I just would like to have a cuddle to go to sleep, curled up warm and cozy. I am not in a very good mood. Hoping the coffee helps

I remembered to open the blind as I walked through. It makes the room hotter, so David will close it at some point or when the lighting changes. But I can see out and see the garden.

I am bleh. I will smoke and read on in polysci..if I can stand it. I have 2 long hard vocab lists.
I hand copied the first five.I am going to type them into my study guide a work in progress.
 
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Finally got a did it. Photo Tif in the mail to Tif, Nancy & my parents. I need to go open curtain, so will take dishes to sink. A moment of declutter. Song birds. :) Syrup to the kitchen! Wake to the bake. Let me see about decluttering the other side of the chair, filling a trash can? I will find some MUSIC and try that. brb
 
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I picked up my hotspot, been good at that. opened the windows, carried dishes into kitchen, emptied office trash. coffee and cig time. I have been glued to my chair feeling awkward. I am working towards getting those things on auto pilot. It gets so tiresome feeling lost trying to come up with the next right thing that I am able to do.
 
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took a long hard nap. now it is very late but I really needed that. I can't believe my daughter did not let me know if grandson will graduate or not. I registered for world regional geography, political science runs same day/time, so scratch that plan. still need to get hold of honors lady.
 
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I didn't stay up long and went right back to sleep. Slept another 5hours until 8am...a normal time,woo-hoo!

I am really hating it that I can only take one class at a time. used to be 5 and if I could do that one more time I would be on the homestretch to graduate.
But I stressed as much or more just over one class last semester. I did learn so much more from having the single focus and always doing just that extra bit in order to score well. I loved my prof and that had a lot to do with it, and she was okay with my absences. So, I am taking her other class where I know what to expect and can get a 4.0. It is not a class that I need, per se but it is one I can do. I need to move on to get junior level classes. I have to get to where I can take 2 classes at a time. bbl
 
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I got really really bored and wasted 2 days hanging out online. Woke up a real grouch this morning. Went back to bed shortly after noon. All I have done today is empty one sink this morning. I will get the other here in a little bit. Trying to figure out what is going on with my inmate, I am feeling used...but for that, it requires my cooperation but I have new info. Pissed at all the stupid politics. People are so gullible!
 
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cornbread pans soaking, need to load for day 2. Sent postcard to parents. sad that I haven't heard back again from Trey or Terry. I have 2 or 3 new ones just sent out.dry shirts in laundry been token for an hour. I could go back to bed. David will sleep awhile yet. but I have been practicing staying up. I guess it doesn't matter at all does? School will be end of Aug. We just finished the 3 day beans & cornbread. A penny saved is a penny earned. Got my Now account. It has $10 in it for my dental surgeries. but I have been going for the oriental. Joe owes me 60 I owe that to David. But he will be out too. I already listed him 10 for sale. going to nap
 
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Day 3 flylady. I wish I had some mail to answer. Hm. absentism-show up for flylady every day. I am glad David is remembering to turn the tv off. Too early for him, he went back to bed. He will unload the dishwasher later. I have that mess to pick up by the chair. Got almost 1/2 of it. the focus is the dishes.Not in the mood for a nap. I am in the mood to go out with David and add starts to the dappled willow. Maybe move a lily.
plant the cosmos.
 
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I am very unstable right now. I feel like my ptsd is fully triggered. I am so so sad. I am hurt that I did not get responses to my mail but Terry may be on lockdown. I looked at the new listings but that is depressing me. I have a couple new ones out, too soon to hear from them. Wrote one today. But I am out of stamps until the 3d, payday. I went from a level of happy all the time to a layer of depression stifling my breath over night. the hurt from my grandson is awful. It won't take much to round up the dishes, wash the sinks and be caught up with that today. I don't know what to do with my time. I am just lost about that. I said I would give up next semester so David can go. But so scared of becoming depressed. The academics keep me interested, learning and busy. Housekeeping as a vocation just does not work for me. God knows I have tried. Hopefully David will get his disability fixed today or very soon. We are being squeezed out financially by this screw up on his benefits. He is lucky he showed up today and got an appmt this afternoon. Maybe he can fax it in? I couldn't get myself to go outside yesterday and David ignored me when I wanted to talk to him about it. I don't think he loves me like he used to. He seems to be putting off hostile vibes. I know he is depressed and feeling hostile about the screw up with our monies and it is a really big deal. We can't pay our bills and need it fixed asap. I guess we are not snuggle sleeping because it is too hot.
 
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