- Apr 5, 2015
- Valley of dry bones
I keep coming back to suicidal ideation. I have a few days every couple of weeks where I feel mildly less depressed, but the depression and anxiety never really go away. And then it gets worse, and I feel like I have nowhere to go. I circle round and round and round inside my head, and every attempt to better my life exacerbates my depression and anxiety. Now I am having to apply for social assistance and the process is accelerating my stress, and my suicidal thoughts are intensifying. I am thinking about how I could kill myself, what I need to buy and where I could buy it. I pretty much have it all figured out.