- Aug 9, 2020
When i have good weeks i feel like i'm cured but then something small happens or i feel sad and disappointed with myself and it all comes back. What amazes me is how quickly my brain goes from just existing to making plans of suicide. It really exhausts me to just fight it and i wish i had no reasons to live. I'm on venlafaxine and don't know if i should tell my psichiatrist today about my ideation. I also have more self harm thoughts. Never would have thought this will be my life..