- Feb 21, 2021
Hi, I was diagnosed with OCD last year and am currently really struggling with things. I have been off my prescribed fluvoxamine a month after diagnosis and I had been doing okay for myself since. However, the last few months have been hard on me and I suffered a minor breakdown where I told my family some things I believe. My mom is convinced I'm schizophrenic and I disagree(we do have a family history of bipolar disorder and schizophrenia). I have magical thoughts but sometimes I just notice patterns and a sort of input-output to life. For example, I believe that when I ask the universe for something, it sometimes answers but at a cost. These costs manifest as an amount of suffering equal to the value of what I asked for. I broke down and told my mom I believe that my disabled sibling was the result of my 'greediness' as I have been considered 'gifted' from a young age. I took from them unknowingly. I am aware this is untrue logically but I still believe it is true deep down. Is this considered delusion, or rather just magical thinking? Thoughts?