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Stuck in a rut

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CaptainFlint

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Stuck in a rut. Depressed for a long time, and have increasing or at least steady anxiety about things that have happened to me in recent past and could potentially happen again in the future.

No money for beer. No plans for the next month until I'm finally able to start school again and get a job. So been popping mood stabilizers like candy. Probly gonna run out too early, but not in the mood to plan ahead

I just can't do any of the prescribed things people say I should do. They say I should join volunteer groups or social activities. But because of kind of not-recent yet recent events, my anxiety is specifically about being seen in public or interacting with strangers.

They say I should get counseling but I'm sick of it and it doesn't help me at all at the moment

Positive thinking isn't something I can just turn on, because even though I have a good supportive family, the issues I'm facing are external, and can't be solved by a change in attitude. Hard to explain and I'm not sure I can. But everything feels like too much to handle

I want friends, but don't have them anymore. I miss my ex girlfriend but don't have her anymore. I hate being alone and it compounds all the negativity I already have

So what do i do now besides drink and pop mood stabilizers. No money for beer and pills will be gone soon. Sigh
 
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TulipIceCream

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Since your family is supportive can you spend more time with them? Maybe they can go with you to volunteer or do activities?
 
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CaptainFlint

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Mom is the only person I spend time with now lol. All day. It's great she's supportive

But without any peers to talk to I feel like I'm just wasting away, you know?

I'm sure I'll meet people when I go back to school next month. But it's been too long sitting in this house. Just very tired of everything that's ever happened to me in my life, and now I have too much time to think about it all lol
 
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albagobragh

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Is there anything you can do to take your mind off of things until you start back at school? Gaming or exercise or even puzzles?
 
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CaptainFlint

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Is there anything you can do to take your mind off of things until you start back at school? Gaming or exercise or even puzzles?
Yeahh. Funny you'd mention that. I've actually been doing a lot of crosswords, and a lot of gaming for the first time in many years. There are definitely moments where I wake up out of my reverie and realize how much I miss real things, real love, good things happening to me in the real world. But for now; being a little distracted isn't so bad.

I have friends in the game o_0 . If that counts lmao
Which it sort of does, but also doesn't at all. You know
 
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