really struggling at the mo been crying best part of the day. Im losing my job which ment the world to me. Im losing it because I had an accident 3 years ago at work and after 3 operations it still is not fixed and they r saying i can no longer do the job im in as I have to stand all day long as I work in a care home for adults with learning differculties and mental health issues. I have a meeting with the owners at my house on friday and I cant see myself getting to friday. I have reached a real big low where no one can reach me. I have no money and not suure when i will be getting more. I have 3 horses to feed and i just dont know how im going to get through the next few months without money. I have also got to wait for x rays to see if they ar going to do an ankle replacement on my ankle as thats all thats left that they can do. Im breaking down shutting people out. I look around this world and feel I dont belong anywhere anymore. I dont feel for nothing and pray to god each night to not let me wake in the morning.