- Jan 24, 2020
ahh. i've been trying to stay positive but haven't been able to break out of the b/p cycle. feeling really low lately. i've at least been making myself exercise but then i undo it all with b/p. i let it affect everything, work, socializing, potential dates. i definitely push people away because i feel too disgusting to be seen, and then invite attention from the wrong kinds of people, people who can't actually get close in real life. looking for a way to get out of it, and to kickstart my life again in to healthier habits. I know that other people don't judge me as much as i judge myself but the thought of going out and socializing or having a normal life when i've gained weight is so stressful to me. sometimes i'm able to force myself to do it but lately i haven't been and then that of course continues the cycle, more time alone makes me continue and then the situation gets worse and worse. does anyone have any tips? thanks!! just feeling really alone right now.