Struggling with those old thoughts of s/h

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I’m a failure utter failure!
Been crying for hours and really struggling with those thoughts again. It seems whenever I do one thing right, I do another million things wrong.
I’m not suicidal or anything but I do deserve to punish myself for being too cocky in yesterday’s journal entry.
I hate myself even more today. Sure I can always resubmit my assignment I failed but when I poured weeks of research into it only to fail, I think that says a lot about me as a person. I give up! I don’t even know what I did wrong and besides in my family failure is unacceptable so I deserve to feel really shitty. JC now I’m crying again!
Godammit I suck!
I can’t even get away with s/h because the children are here for a week on Summer break and I swore I’d never harm myself with them around. Very sad and frustrated vanish
 
Foxjo

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Hey,
Your not a failure, thats the depression talking. Remember they are just thoughts and will pass.
Im glad the children are in the house as this will make you stop.
Please dont give up
Hugs
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Fairy Lucretia

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your not a failure and you don't suck x
you are unwell and need and deserve support

im glad you have the forum to get your feelings out

try not to be so hard on yourself
with love and support
Lu x