Struggling to ignore head

[mami5]

CPN called today, as arranged. Told her how I feel and that head is making plans. She just said it was my choice. Didn't really want to talk about it. Was going to tell psychiatrist though. Tried to explain how I feel and what it is like to live like this, she didn't want to know, just blamed me for it as if I chose to be like this!! I'm exhausted. Don't know what else I can do. Nowhere to turn to. No help. Nothing. Feel so alone.

 

[Comfort23]

How are you doing today? It's understandable to feel alone and exhausted. Dealing with your head when it thinks like this can be frightening and isolating and tiring. I took lethal means out of my place months ago because I wasn't entirely certain I could trust myself. I also wrote up a safety plan and a note to myself to help me when I can't think straight. I find using cold water or an ice pack on my face can trigger the dive reflex and calm down the intensity of the suicidal thoughts.

Perhaps, this page would have some ideas to help you feel a little better when you're struggling? Suicidal Crisis • Mental Health Forum