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bluebell24
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- Aug 7, 2009
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I wrote on here last week about a friendship that had ended ... my friend had had enough due to the ups and downs that have gone with being in my life.
Today I'm trying SO hard not to contact him ... I've begun to feel lots better, think a combination of meds kicking in and CBT proving very effective. And now I'm desperate to get in touch and say hi, but I know it'd still probably be way too soon. I also don't think he'd particulalry appreciate a message along the lines of 'hey, I'm not so crazy now, please can we be friends' as I think it's kinda missing the point that I put him through so much crap.
I just needed to get the thoughts out of my head ... plus writing here distracts me from the urge to write to him! I miss him enormously, even more so now I'm starting to feel okay again and feel like I have good stuff to share with him. I am so full of regret for not listening to him when he asked for space, and really wish I'd got some proper help sooner, then not only would I be better but I'd not be without a very important friend.
Vent over!
Today I'm trying SO hard not to contact him ... I've begun to feel lots better, think a combination of meds kicking in and CBT proving very effective. And now I'm desperate to get in touch and say hi, but I know it'd still probably be way too soon. I also don't think he'd particulalry appreciate a message along the lines of 'hey, I'm not so crazy now, please can we be friends' as I think it's kinda missing the point that I put him through so much crap.
I just needed to get the thoughts out of my head ... plus writing here distracts me from the urge to write to him! I miss him enormously, even more so now I'm starting to feel okay again and feel like I have good stuff to share with him. I am so full of regret for not listening to him when he asked for space, and really wish I'd got some proper help sooner, then not only would I be better but I'd not be without a very important friend.
Vent over!